back from bali

hey guys
im back
from BALI~~!!
^^
and i've bring some souvenir for you guys...
anyway thats not the main point



as you know
indonesia is an islamic country
BUT
in bali
90% of the ppl is hindu
haha~! wow
that really surprises me at the first time



and do you know?
the ppl there is really really friendly
and most importantly,
honest...
they dont steal, rob, cheat...
you can just put your stuff at the vehicles or road side
and surprisingly
it wont to gone~~!!


and things there
are super cheap~!
you can get 45 key chains for about RM8
HAHA~! =P


about the beaches
hmm...
i really dunno what to say
i tot bali is famous for its beaches
BUT
have to see the location
some of the beaches
are really just KANASAI..
XD
but heard from my friend
(which stayed at the different town in bali)
bali has really beautiful beach
so yea, i dunno...


i don wanna talk much
just,
its worth to visit bali..
^^ really~!
cheap, fun, and convenient...
I LOVE BALI~~!!


-J!@rU-

twilight saga - new moon

yes yes yes
i watched it today
it was fine
just fine...
the main character - edward
did not really attract me much

haha~! i like the jacob guy..
he looks so mannnnn...
gosh... and look at the body
sooooo muscular~! <3333
XD

and the jacob guy is so protective...
>< so sweeeeeet....

not confident, at all...

let see....
hmmm...
its the 2nd day of spm
i don think i can take this anymore
history
yea... thats everyone's nightmare
mine especially

i think i did very very badly today
i hope God will still gimme an A
i hope He will gimme confidence
and help me along this journey

i dunno
how many A's i can get
i dunno
what college i will enter
i don even what should i do now


my mind is blank..... blank.... blank...
may God bless me...

my graduation day

celebrate in pizza hut after our graduation day...

yum yum yum~~!!

took picture in front of our class

love-shaped 5sc1

tsk tsk tsk...

see how much we love him??

khai wei... don act yeng lar...

you think you model meh?

under the big big tree

beautiful scenary right??

together we chase our dream~~!!

feeling so strange

should be feeling, shouldnt i??

graduate, is a good thing

i felt a little reluctant,

perhaps just a little...

singing together on the performance stage,

its our fate to know each other...

if i said i was not sad, even a little,

i was lying then...

haha~!! can you find me... =P

im standing in a special place... ^^

graduation is a good thing... =)

QTI

^^
look at this emoticon
haha~!
I'VE PASSED MY QTI~~!!
=P

im so gonna take my test before spm
^^ then everything would be easier
right right right??
then after spm straight go celebrate~~!!
WAHAHAHA...

impressive~~!!

^^
you know whats sooooo impressive??
i studied history, biology and
i finally finish my add-maths exercises...
haha~! wee wee wee....

thats something impressed me as well...
haha~! i've driven 6 hours...
and now i have 4 hours of driving left~~!!
^^ see see see??

haha~! i know you guys can do better than me
much much better than me...
but... gimme a little compliment ler...
=P haha~!
give each other a little support ma...
rite rite rite??

-J!@rU-

carrie underwood - i'll stand by you

Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too


When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less


I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you


So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you


When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong


I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you


And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You feeling all alone
You won't be on your own
I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you


Oh I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you

-J!@rU-

my very first time of driving a car

wow wow wow...
i never imagined i will drive a car
ppl fetch me everyday
and i have nothing to worry

i always thought driving a car is simply nothing
too easy for me to think about it
and now i realise
i am so wrong
XD
i even laughed at myself during driving
i kept sweating and laughing
until my coach laughed at me as well

i felt a little embarrassed
but actually
i was having my fun,
drivin my own car
^^ im serious...
side parking is kinda complicated
but i think i'll get used to it if i practise more..
=)))))))
im so excited to get my drivin lisence~~~!!!

^^
wish me luck~~!!

-J!@rU-

Colbie Caillat - Fallin for you

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better


I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head


I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you


As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me


I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head


I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you


Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out


I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you


I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)


I'm fallin' for you


Ooohhh Oh no no
OooooohhhOh I'm fallin' for you


Its a nice song.. ^^
so sweet...


-J!@rU-

wealth

money
this is one of the trial english essay questions...
and i choose this question
cuz i dunno what else to write
im sure i did badly in the essay

we always watch scenes of fighting
argue and fight over money
its common in dramas
but have you ever experienced it in your family?

it sounds stupid, i know
but it will happen
when you come to adult world
its so complicated until we might forget
what we called "family"

its horrible
when everyone's face
is either crying like hell
or completely impassive
even a little money
or a piece of junk worth hundreds or thousands
can cause a fight?
HAHAHA...
that really sounds ridiculous, to me...
maybe onli to me, i dunno

a fight over money
sounds normal
but its definitely idiotic, trust me...

-J!@rU-

最近大家怎么了？

早上来到学校
看看周围的同学
大家好像越来越不对劲
很压力，
相信大家也一样

最近
大家的感情世界
好像都怪怪的
别说我的，因为我过得很好
XD
看到蛮多朋友
很坚持自己的感情
其实还蛮感动的
不简单
很辛苦
当然他们还是这样过了下去

有些呢？
看了，都想一粒打下去
XD 气死人。。。
做人，怎么可以这样？
不自爱，“便宜”，随便，
ISH~~!!

好了啦～！
生气了。。。
不要再写了，走人先。。。

aging XD

waa...
recently start to study d...
slow-progressing
sejarah, duh~!
read and forget
i wonder whats the point keep reading the book
CHEH~!
biology too
luckily got some chapters "interesting" abit de..

recently old d,
haha~!
9 something in the night
feel sleepy d
dying soon izit?
XD dunno lar...
but compare to ah lek
im much better
cuz the old man sleep from 3 in the afternoon till the next morning
GENG~! *salute*
haha... dying soon dyin soon..

have to study more and faster d
worried cannot finish revising
*sigh*
hope i can still alive till spm ends
god bless me..

4-in-1 day

the 4-in-1 day
parents' day
canteen day
hari koko
and hari koperasi

what a busy day
*sigh* but its a boring day as well
my results suck like hell
get used to it
cuz im not clever
or hardworking
im just an ordinary girl
not special not all

don expect too much from me
cuz you'll be disappointed at the end of the day
don be so demanding
cuz you'll get nothing from me

i hope you will understand this
cuz im really just an very ordinary girl
expecting too much
will gimme alot of pressure

i always try to be a better one
try to be an outstanding one
the best one, maybe? =P
=)

understanding..

hmmm...
how to get started leh?
i heard a story from one of my friends
a girl named A and a guy named B
A likes B alot
they are a couple
but B finds out that
she's a little bossy..
maybe more
she is so demanding,
that B cant stand it...
B is not allowed to talk to other girls
even if B is tired at night, he must accompany A

finally B breaks up with A
but A still likes B, alot
they remain as friend
A demand B treat her like his gf
but B just treats her like a friend
now A is very disappointed,
cuz B does not give as much as commitment like she expected

from this story
i think,
A should be more understanding
so what do you think?

yeah yeah yeah~!

phew~! at last...
exam was over
two weeks of sleepless nights
it was scary
study non stop
wow... don even wanna picture it

tennis training phase 2
it was quite tiring
physical training everyday
run run run~~~!!
*sigh sigh sigh*
new racquet~~!! haha..
[K] six
woo hoo~~!!
for me, its quite heavy,
why everyday said its light???

tomorrow going to ipoh
to stay for a night
then the next day 3 am
going to KLIA,
woo~~!!
for a flight to SARAWAK~~~!!!
haha... so excited...

*sigh*
joey's blog said,
love someone is tiring,
being loved by someone is like owing them..
its true...
cant deny it...
being loved is not wrong peeps~~!!
HMPH~~!!

给你的信

我们之间
是怎么了？
距离越来越远
怎么会这样？
是因为有别人吗？
你每次都说
我们的关系
就是这样的
可是
真的是如此吗？
我不知道

每次看见你对其他人的态度
轻声细语
有温柔地微笑
我
就这样特别？
得不到这些东西

我
总是很在乎你
可最近
还是觉得
保持距离
其实并没有什么不好
我不要求多
对我
像朋友那么普通
就好

就这样
不想讲太多
你很聪明
应该会懂

duh~! helpless

*sighhhh*
what happened to me?
duh duh duh...
keep sighing whole day
haizzzzzz...

tired? maybe...
add-math dunno how to do
cant go to tuition
tennis competition-- msspk
i should be happy cuz can meet my friends there
but what about homework here?

helpless
what can i do?
wait to get the last placing in the exam in may?
damn me...
just hope someone can gimme his/her time
someone who didnt need it?
perhaps
like those rubbish ppl
24 hours is definately not enough
for my life now

if i have 30 hours in my life
if i can sleep onli 3 hours without getting tired
if i can finish study within 1 hour
HAHA~! thats so impossible
just kill me

im so frustrated
do add-math until so frustrated
!!!
cuz i dunno how to do~~~~~
=(
so happy lor you all?
i get the last placing ar..
happy lor?
sc 1 ppl -- selfish

hmph~~!!
yes yes yes
i AM scolding you right now
if you do understand
you fatty, idiot, pig.
haha~! i hope you get fatter and fatter
uglier and uglier
just get stupider and stupider
i hope ur hair curl like the WIRE
ur pride
selfishness
i hope i can kill them all

ah nvm
its not worth to get angry with you piggy
宽容嘛
i will... =)
just get away from my vision
i will be thankful for that sincerely XD

makan makan makan...

chilis in gurney plaza, penang.

look at my bro's face... XD

my father is staring at you...

idiot patrick, you look funny... XD

bbq plaza in 1 U

cheap and nice... whoo~~!!

*hungry*

-J!@rU-

终于，我也有这一天

真没想到，我也会有这么down的一天。
难得难得，我也知道啦！
有些情绪用华文比较容易讲明白
最近的我，是怎么了？
嗟夫～！ 哈哈。。。。
（华文的古文，嗟夫：唉）

是，我承认
我不想别人看见我脆弱的一面
也许，你们会更好奇
也许，你们会关心
也许，你们会八卦
也许，你们会猜测到底发生了什么事

不是我自私
不是我自闭
不是我伪君子 （屁～！列俊豪）
只是不想让别人认为我博取同情
不需要，so 就让沉默和时间
慢慢地冲淡一切

很难得，
我今天把自己的情绪放出来
还蛮多人发现的
but 那个笨蛋凯威
快点长大啦～！幼稚到。。。。。
明知道我心情不好
还一直欺负我，打下去～～！！

我
觉得
我没事了
希望真的是如此吧！

choices..

in evereone's life
we DO have choices
to be happy?
to be lonely?
to be sad?
to be miserable?
make ur life exciting?
make ur life dull like hell?

believe me when i say this,
we really do have choicessss.
of cuz,
in love matter we cant choose who we love,
cuz its fate, TAKDIR~!
haha~! but,
when we love someone,
must we be sad and miserable,
if we couldnt have our beloved?

NO NO NO~~!!
you're definately wrong wrong wrong..
i know, its hurting so much...
but pls, don ruin the whole life
just bcuz of someone who doesnt love you

smile,
make them know that
not choosing you is their loss.
choose to be happy,
be so fine, without them.
make them regret for not seeing ur beautiful and fineness.

do not cry,
for them who doesnt care for you.
you know you can do it.
believe me,
you know you'll be fine without them.

-J!@rU-

April fool~~!!

haha~!
so today is april fool...
go to school as usual
form 5, 17 years old
nobody fool around anymore
all we mind is SPM SPM and
SPM~~~!!

all we care
is onli SPM??
no real life anymore?
no jokes around us...
no fooling each other in the class...
whoever fooling around,
everyone will ask him/her,
how old are you now?
haha~! aiyo... ke lian ke lian...

ah mak ar... you fooled me at the wrong time
i was so damn "=.="
no mood to play with you ar...
aiyoyoo~~!!
paiseh ar...
=P

-J!@rU-

因为你

失去你以后
我像断了线的风筝
失去了方向
在黑暗里
寻找渺渺的光芒
找回希望

失去你以后
我像没有双眼的盲人
没有了色彩
在孤独中
寻找一丝丝希望
抓住理想

我知道
没有你的日子
我会很难熬
但我会好好地过下去
让你知道
没有了你
我依然能过得很好

*因为你
在我生命添加了不少色彩
因为你
带给我很甜蜜美好的回忆
因为你
让我讨厌自己的愚蠢无知
因为爱你
勇敢地为自己
推开乌云还自己一片蓝天

把脆弱的一面藏起来
不想让别人知道
因为你
我哭着笑
其实我还爱着你

-J!@rU-

hanging out with friends...

this evening,
me, lek, mun hoe, james, huey tyng,
go out to hang around
watched movie
had our dinner
sing k
wow~! pokkai some more...
lucky james was here
to pay for my dinner
WAHAHAHA~! thanks thanks thanks...
=) next time when got money i belanja you back ok?
haha.. promise lar...

the movie-- the unborn
haiz... idiot me
pay money to scare myself
>< ok i was scared
keep closing my ears and eyes
haha~! so timid...
cant sleep anymore tonight
aiks... have to sleep also
cuz tomorrow cheng beng ma... aduh~!

sing k..
aiyo... its very interesting
haha~! cuz all of us sing very WELL...
haha~~~!! one hour is really
NOT ENOUGH~~!!
its fun, seriously...
come out again some time ok??

haha~! i know i know
huey tyng, you're sooo not satisfied right?
im sorry... i didnt know that chin would do that
haha~! he told you he will bring his friends right?
kok hon told ya too right?
what a guy...
im soooo sorry...

-J!@rU-

aiyo... aiyo...

yeah~! tomorrow jiawen will be home...
i can go out to play.. HAHA~!
syok syok syok~!
we are planning to watch horror movie -- the unborn..
im scared, just a little.. =P
haha~! alright.. im scared...
neh neh neh~! that lek lor...
haha~! its his fault...
abit excited cuz never watch horror movie in cinema before.
aiyoyoyoyo....

haiz... today in school,
what a bad day...
stomachache the whole day
slept in the school.. wahahahaha~~!!
aiyo aiyo...
pity me lar...

-J!@rU-

darn~! are you nut?

yea, im scolding someone
and that "someone" is me myself.
yes i am saying i am scolding myself
so frustrated....
><
the damn f*cking exam results
making my life so miserable
i really hate myself
why am i that stupid and brainless?
argh... its ok its ok ITS OK~!
whatever my results,
my life still goes on
i should be happy, right?

duh... this saturday
wanna go out and have fun with friends
=) so happy~! haha...
i can satisfy easily....
just wanna have fun
hehe...
wanna go watch movie
eat a dinner with friends
sing aloud in the k-box
laugh together with my friends
woohoo~! its gonna be an unforgettable evening
=P haha.. i hope?

im so down recently
just bcuz of this kanasai result....
everyone is asking, whats ur peratus? whats ur peratus?
and now i answer everyone of you..
i get zero.... satisfy with this answer?
fff...
damn... wonder what my brain made of?
nut? bread?

-J!@rU

holiday ends, hard life comes

i guess,
i should start to study hard for spm.
homework haven finished
don even have a study mood
im dead~!

just came back from penang
im so damn tired
bought a nike blouse for huey tyng as her birthday present
hope she'll like it
cuz i think its soooooo wonderful
that i wish i could own it....
sobxX~!
i love it sooo much
i'll give you in school tomorrow RELUCTANTLY
haha~! nah just joking.

promised myself
i'll start studying hard for spm
haha~! but can i?
don think so...
haha~! cuz i know my style
im sooo lazy
recently im so successful
finally i can sleep till 11am..
HAHA~! cuz usually i always try to sleep till very late
and now i've successed~!
congrats me everyone~~!! haha~!

-J!@rU-

its holiday~! and im pokkai...

wow... its been a long time i didnt update my blog.
its ok, its dying already. XP
a week of holiday, just like a weekend.
nothing more else.
just came back from prs camp.
after two days of resting, my leg muscles is still PAIN~!
after applying three to four times of the cream,
it is STILL......... pain.
-suffer-

in the holiday,
im so lazy that i had ponteng at least two tuitions.
haha~! don care anymore.
cuz its holiday now
wahahahaha~! and today, at last
i attend the physic tuition
know why?
cuz i just wanna talk to my friends
a week without friends
oh no, im dying of bore

however, its not that boring this holiday
cuz i went to a camp
and watch movie with my family
and.......
going to penang tomorrow~~!!
woohoo~! haha..
so syok
at last, something excited..
=P shopping~!

i am getting lazier and lazier this holiday
day by day
i feel more and more reluctant to move
haha~! lazy cat jiaru...

cham...
this month i will get scolded by my mum, again.
cuz.................
my phone bill is too high, =P
cham cham...
just bcuz of this,
im still owing my mum 50 ringgit
and now, im pokkai d~~!!
cham cham cham... huey tyng's present?
how wor? ><
don care lar... haha~!

-J!@rU-

my dear friend, happy birthday~!

hey yo...
happy birthday my honey huey tyng...
haha~! a lot of surprises huh?
=P i saw you're so happy today with the presence of
everyone you love.
=) its a good thing...
and im so sorry i havent get you a present...
=( sorry sorry sorry~~!!
i promise i'll get you 1 later, k??
=) its so nice to see you happy till you cry...
happy birthday~!!

-J!@rU-

happy birthday daniel, my life without you..

happy birthday daniel~!
18 year-old-birthday,
i wish you well....
and i know you ARE always well...
=) don be a loner anymore, promise me?
you have ngan,
the girl who rules your everything.
be happy...

erm...
my blog is almost died.
HAHA~!
no time to online and spend my time in front of the comp...
blogging, playing games...
busy with studies is also actually a good thing.
makes me forget the sad things,
makes me move on,
with some aims and targets in my life.

=) i wanna achieve good results in SPM,
wanna be happy always,
wanna study overseas,
(if i can afford to)
HAHA~! get a good job,
and EARN ALOT OF MONEY~~!!!
wahahaha~! =P
and i know i can, =)
HAHA~!
cuz you know what,
my life gets better without you...
XD i hope?

-J!@rU-

pizza hut --->> what a goood service and foooooddd...

today we had a simple birthday party at pizza hut.
at first, i thought it would be a great party,
cuz there would have me, lek, and leong.

and who knows?
jack who promised to come,
sms to lek 30 minutes after the birthday dinner started :
"i wont be there. sorry. my mum cant bring me there."
at that moment,
lek's face changed.
he's angry~~!!

however, we continued the dinner.
it was going fine. just fine.
chung keat who are the nicest person in the world,
accompanied lek for his birthday.
not eating anything but wanted to pay.
aiks~! =)
how would a person in this world do such a sweet thing?
he just had a sip of the mushroom soup, thats all.
and handed lek a 10 ringgit note.
love him~~!!

since today was lek's birthday,
we could have a free pizza -- a special birthday pizza.
we all thought it would be great to have a free pizza...

BUUUUUUT,
after 2 hours we waited there,
and at least 5 times of reminds,
the pizza was still not in sight~~!!
we ARE so angry.
still ARE so angry...

at last, my mum came to help...
HAHA~! my heroine.... (perhaps lek's too)
she complaint to those fucking stupid waiters and waitresses.
and they didnt even wanna do anything.
at last, she wanted to call the supervisor,
who was hiding inside, i suppose.
she promised to give the birthday pizza in 15 minutes.

FINALLY, the pizza came.
but it was already very late.
we didnt wan to argue anymore with those BABI.
lazy d you know???

we decided to make a complain through the suggestion box.
i wonder do they ever take these suggestion seriously....

lek version :
Are you in the gang of those shitty shits?
If you are, don bother to read this.
I hereby demand your utmost attention regarding the attitude your workers prossess.
firstly, i deserve a birthday pizza as today is my bithday.
but it never come to my table at all, AT ALL shall i emphasize?
it was frustrating to keep on reminding your reluctant workers over and over again,
at least 4 times.
and it is still not in sight.
im totally pissed and upset.
sorry but fuck you.

my version : ( in malay as i afraid that those babi don understand )
bila saya mau nama waiter yang ambil order untuk buat complain,
tau apa mereka buat?
mereka yang perempuan sedang BERGODA-GODA lelaki yang masak pizza
di dalam sementara saya berdiri di sana seperti orang bodoh.

tujuan saya buat complain :
(i) pelayan BODOH macam BABI~!! birthday pizza tidak nampak bayang pun.
sudah tunggu 5 minit, eh bukan bukan, lagi tambah satu jam lagi kot.
(ii) sikap pelayan yang tidak endah-endah
sudah complain kepada pekerja awak yang BODOH, kata mereka
pizza itu mungkin tidak akan datang lagi, KERANA
mereka kata sangat BUSY.
saya tunggu sampai dinosaur pun sudah pupus.

how could they say this??
aduhai~~!! what a "gooooddd" service~!
i pity you lek.
haiz~! but its ok.
happy birthday lek...

-J!@rU-

happy birthday to lek, joey, daniel allison

hey lek...
happy birthday man....
i cant get you a present right now,
cuz i have no time to buy 1,
im sorry~! =P

recently im so damn bloody busy.
sobxX~! homework,
pressure me more and more every single day.
i almost forget about the pain,
that hurted me alot, i suppose.
it is a good thing.
i still miss him alot though. =(
duh im useless.

its time to start the revision for SPM,
think so...
HAHA~!
BUT i always forget what i had read after one week.
i have BAD memory.
duh duh duh.

joey's birthday is coming too.
happy birthday to you 1st,
as im afraid that i don have chance to wish you.
=) enjoy...

tomorrow im going to pizza hut
with lek and whoever they are...
HAHA~!
how many ppl do you actually invite??
aiks, no planning at all....
nvm nvm nvm,
cuz birthday boy the greatest that day.
so we have to prepare for the unplanned birthday party.
=P just joking
even though it is not well-planned like rich woman,
but i believe that it'll be great and fun.

huey tyng's birthday party.....
haiz, -troubled look-
what present should i get for her?????
-thinking deeply, deeeeeeeeeppplyyy-
damn damn damn....
hmmmm... should i get her some clothes?
nah, no way~!
im pokkai-ing right now at this moment.
perhaps some mascara and make-up thingy??
i know nothing about them.
duh... still thinking so hard.

i would like to announce something here,
everybody, listen well.
daniel allison's birthday is coming too~~!!
8th march.
i wish you to have a happpppyyy birthday,
this early,
as i don have the time to online always.
HAHA~~!!
maybe i'll give you your present when you're here...
=) just be happy always.

-J!@rU-

roses, roses, everywhere.

origami roses

i folded the two big roses.

the pink, little rose is from miao si.

(im not an expert yet, cant make a small 1 since it's complicated)

i've learnt for about three days

and finally i can make a beautiful 1.

=( thats sad huh?

girls always make beautiful origami,

but me? nah...

the yellow and the red roses,

is for allllllll the friends that i love deeply.

and my family.

valentine day is coming so soon.

one week 7 days.

so i wish every couple or everyone who don have a partner

happy valentine day~!

according to my dad,

valentine day should be celebrated together with the whole family,

cuz he loves the whole family.

HAHA~!

my cute and funny dad.

whoever wan origami roses,

feel free to tell me.

i ONLI charge 1 ringgit per rose.

HAHA~! its sooooo cheap you know?

=P (just joking)

but for some ppl who are special

i don charge.

HAHA~! like daniel,

ievonn(i'll give you a white 1),

yanqi,

khaiwei(if you still dunno how to make 1),

huey tyng,

and my family.

give some comments on my roses,

cuz my teacher said it doesnt look like a rose,

but a tulip.

weird~! haha...

for daniel allison onli ---

i'll post your blue rose on the next blog.

XD yellow represents friendship

red represents love.

whats blue representing??

haha..

now then, i realise...

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*
don even know how to express my feeling right now..
of cuz, its a bad feeling,
that shouldnt i feel in real life.
duh, what am i talking about?
everyone that are close with me,
they seem like getting further and further away,
away from me...

what can i do?
envy the friends they are close with?
duh... not my style.
i better just keep this feeling in my heart.
yea, thats me~! =)
everytime when i thought finally i have a friend like this,
things turned the other way round.

should i say, im naive? ( in good term?)
or maybe too stupid? (or you prefer this term?)
or i don deserved to have a friend,
a real good 1?
yea, perhaps.
let me advise you here,
don give promises to anyone,
unless you can fulfill it.
or else you'll be hurting your friend.

true friends,
need no promise but trust.
remember that.
when a friend trusted you,
he/she doesnt need any promise from you anymore.
just wish things don always turn the other way round
whenever i enjoy the moment.

i always have an opinion in my mind,
when you treat a person nice,
he'll treat you nice too.
so if you take him as a friend,
he'll take you AT LEAST as a friend.
if you love and respect your family members,
they'll love and respect you too.

but look like im wrong.
i have to say,
i always treat friends nice.
but.... right, i don know.
maybe i am a bad friend.
some ppl,
don even have to treat ppl nice.
they get friends by their popularity.
i don hate these ppl, just envy.

HELLO?
we dont make friends by this way.
like szely write in her personal message,
friends is a promise made from your heart,
sincerely and faithfully.
i WAS naive, and now,
trying to grow stronger,
trying to act strong, i suppose?

in real life,
don ask me if im ok.
cuz i will answer with a SWEET smile and
say, "im so damn fine. do i look like im having any probs?"
DAMN... i hate this question dude.
im just fine, so dont ask.

new year preparation

before new year, me and my mum were baking cakes and cookies.

Concentrate..... concentrate.....

nice shape...

haha~!

see the black shirt girl with specs? so disturbing... HAHA

too black too black...

my kakak (maid)

arranged nicely in the tupperware.

These were prepared to sell.. HAHA~!

the white thingy is the egg white..

mix it into the mixture

add some Rum (40-50% alchohol)

oh no.... it's burnt~~!! haha..

phew... busy day.
baking cookies and cakes the whole day.
haha~! sorry guys.
my cookies were all gone when i was away.

-J!@rU-

new year eve and new year

new year, finally it's over.
back to normal life.
*sigh* don know what happen actually.
its a happy new year, but...
i was feeling weird.

in this new year,
i promise myself,
i will choose to be alone,
so that i can fully concentrate on SPM.
its a really big thing.
till now i havent fully concentrate on it.
i always scold myself,
asking why am i still playing so much.

HAHA~!
its time to work really hard.
wake up from my fairyland dream and stay alert
all the time.
*sigh* its not easy sometimes.
everyone needs a break, somehow.

i told someone before,
there's nothing we should sad about
in this world.
is it really so?
i don know.
just hope not.
time flies, its almost february.
i just wish,
everyone beside me, including my family and friends,
and perhaps some strangers
to be happy always.

baking cakes for new year

woah... what a busy day.
was baking cakes and cookies these two days.
-tired and sweating-
hot hot hot~!
haha... cuz when i was baking layer cake,
i need to sit beside the hot oven...
=( im becoming a burnt piggy~!
haha..
new year mood ma...

HAHA~! one of my cake was BURNT today~~!!
kanasai onli..
*sigh* so cha meh me
cant upload photos,
cuz connection was damn BAD~!
haiz... nvm.
and for those who are lucky,
i'll give you guys some cookies~~!!
chun hou
huey tyng
chong ping
maybe khaiwei (HAHA)
and you know what?
i'll post it to you, dan.
haha~!

erm....
tomorrow is chuxi d..
haha~! gonna help my grandmum to cook for everyone.
know why?
HAHA
cuz its for the moral project.
=P have to...

new year coming d leh,
not looking forward to it at all.
don know why.
*sigh* i think everyone is the same too.

difference between love and like

today our school was having a cross-country competition.
and guess what?
i get 14th~~!!!
haha, amazing huh? i didnt expect this.
but i wasnt very fit enough.
cuz i vomitted a little halfway and
finally vomitted at the end point. (HAHA)
it means that im weak. =(

nvm about it.
*sigh* a bad news = green house is the LAST again~!
red house is good, too good.

miao si was fainted this morning.
it was no good.
but i could see something....
weichong is sooooo caring.
haha~! this impressed me so much.
what a lucky girl, appreciate him.
(maybe as a friend?)
nvm its none of my business.

bcuz of this,
i realise the difference between love and like.
like = when you're sick, he'll wish you recover fast.
love = when you're sick, he'll standby the whole night,
afraid that you'll wake up in the midnight and cant sleep.

like = when you're in a bad situation, he is worried,
hope that you'll be allright.
love = when you're in a bad situation, he is already ready by your side,
helping you to face the situation, wont leave you alone.

like = if you hurt him, he'll maybe hate you, or get angry.
wonder why you did so.
love = even though you've hurt him deeply,
he doesnt mind about the pain, he'll not stay away and always by your side.
he just wan you to be happy.
if you enjoy doing that, then its ok for him.

loving someone is something good, amazing, touching sometimes.
its hard to see a person love so deeply and
get hurted so deeply too.
*sigh* its a sad story that everyone enjoys it.

-J!@rU-

sickness~~

*sigh*
i've fallen sick
actually its a good thing
and its a bad thing too..
the good thing = ppl care for me more than usual
the bad thing = i feel suck

where the sickness come from?
stress? pressure? the hot weather?
or missing him too much sometimes?
*sigh* i don know...

i unawarely added him as a part of my life
cant get rid of this part so easily anymore
too bad for me...
im was too careless about this

when it comes,
it feels so good and
as if im owning the whole world
when it fades away
im extremely helpless
realise that im addicted to your presence in my world
and yet cant do anything to get rid of the addiction

just hope to talk to him everyday
(if i could)
and see his face every moment i open my eyes
have a sweet memory of me and his
thats what i feel

*sigh* cant continue to be like that anymore
cuz i know i have something more important to do
SPM, right. haiz...
this topic is sickening me
its so important that everyone is so afraid of it
im one of them too.
have to work hard for it
you and i know it
there's no way to escape from it

-J!@rU-

sand and wind?

heard from chun hou today morning
about sand and wind.
(from minyew's blog)
what would you like to be?
sand? or wind?
what is the difference between sand and wind?
sand is solid and wind is gas?
=.= dumbest answer i've ever given.

in desert,
there are nothing but sand and wind.
wind blows in a direction and sand follows.
sand does not have choice, it is weak,
powerless.

according to min yew,
in love matters,
wind is the one who manipulate everything in relationship,
sand is the one who just follow the direction of wind,
cant make its own decision.
so am i sand or wind?
i wish to be wind,
but can i choose?

sometimes we don have choice.
i thought i was the wind,
suddenly, i realised that i am the sand
who does not able to control anything in the relationship.
maybe i should say that
im weak in relationship.
thats so sad huh?

i told myself thousands of times,
that i don believe in love anymore.
its something which is easy to say it, but hard to do it.
when it comes, we are weak and unable to resist it.
i reminded myself to be stronger,
but can i when it comes around?
duh... its always so tough for me.

哎，有时真为自己感到悲哀。
为什么还痴痴地迷惑呢？
明明就很清楚是不应该的，
还这么的傻，
一次又一次地，
把自己摔得见不得人。
-dumbness-
i have to idea what can i do more?

one week... new year resolution

its onli one week the school reopens.
wow... ONE week onli.
heaps of homework, pressure...
hate that.
don have enough everyday.

haha~! but im soo happy and satisfied today.
cuz i've sleep for 3 hours this evening today~~!!
HAHA... crazy huh?
a 3 hours nap can make my day.
haha~~!! amazing.

my new year resolution : -
1. i wan pure happiness.
2.do well in every exam and test.
3.do well in every tennis competition ( haha~! can i?)
4.have a good and healthy social life.
5.get straight A's in SPM~~!!
6.st.john's farewell. (haha, i've waited this day long ago)
7.get enough sleep everyday~~!!
8.get ready for college.
9.have heaps of friends~~!! hehexX..
10.buy alot alot alot of things which i like them very much.

haha~! im crazy huh?
thats why ppl hate school..
haha~! cuz they produce students who are crazy like ME~~!!
=P for me, school is a place which everyone gather together and learn from each other.
i love school, and yet i hate school sometimes.
too stressful for someone like me.
=D but i don know why,
im always relax and happy
haha~! amazing huh?

my friends always laugh at me,
they say im funny, very so girlish, weird(dude i hate this word)
(i prefer the word "special" k?)
so sad~! haha~! they say i have sport-like.
haha~! weird, do i really so "special"?

today, lek was telling me that i was drunk.
(still not awake from yesterday's alchohol?)
haha~! i don know why.
like he said, he spoke to me about 5 times while i just heard once.
why is it like that?
haha~! too busy with homework?
don think so.
not paying attention?
wonder what i was doing at that moment.
haha~! not fully conscious?
haha~! hope i can be fully conscious so i can pay full attention to my
homework and studies.
wish me well man.

kkk, don wanna write too much.
as im afraid that i have nothing to write other days.
haha~~!!

-J!@rU-

A new year, a new life.

Happy new year peeps~~!!


Tell you guys something,
im addicted to computer and online games.
CHAM~!
school is going to reopen very very soon~~~!!
haha, im becoming lazier and lazier during this two-months-holiday.


NVM
cuz new year, new life right?
haha~!
im qute excited about this year studies.
school reopen, im so looking forward to it, i don know why.


haha~! friends, we'll meet each other very soon.
hehe...
between, we have a war to fight to win --- SPM~~!!
its pretty scary for me.
maybe for those who can relax, or maybe cleverer can take it easy.
i hope everyone here can realise how important it is to our future.
study friends STUDY~~!!
its not that im your mother or father,
but just wanna remind you guys about it.
see this friend sooooo damn nice?
HAHA~~!!


to all last-year-form-3 students,
PMR result right?
haha~! congrats to all those who take good result.
those who are not satisfy with their result,
form 4, FIGHT~~!!
cuz you'll be like me, SPM very soon.
hehe... cuz time flies you know?


one year, just passed like that.
year 2008, im really very happy to know friends like you all.
and bcuz i almost drop class,
i treasure our friendship more.
leong
ah lek
zhialun
chungkeat
khaiwei
cheachun
weichong
yuxuan
wanshin
ievonn
chee cheat
jiajia
sherry
joey
shuwhey
minyew
although some of them are not really that close with me,
but still there's friendship between us and it is precious to me, seriously.
so, friends forever?


tennis is my life,
till now it still is.
friends i know from tennis,
no one can replace them, ever.
ievonn
yanqi
lizen
jia an
kian teong
kimberly
peiqi
melissa
eezhou
jikent
karen
its not easy to get friendship like these.
this year 2009 is my LAST YEAR.
oh god, i gonna miss you guys like hell.
sobxX~! i'll find you guys when im free or go to ipoh.
haha~! promise.


and some ppl that appear in my life,
that make some changes to me.
(yea you know you're included in daniel allison)
whether its good or bad,
i appreciate that.
they made me grew stronger and i can differentiate whats wrong and right.
love you guys too~!


year 2008,
good things and bad things happened.
let the good things continue and let the bad things passed.
new year, new life.
we're growing up each day,
and i realise, everything we do, whatever decision we make,
determine our future and life.
i have to be more responsible.
cuz this is my life, ME~~!!



-J!@rU-