now then, i realise...

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*
don even know how to express my feeling right now..
of cuz, its a bad feeling,
that shouldnt i feel in real life.
duh, what am i talking about?
everyone that are close with me,
they seem like getting further and further away,
away from me...

what can i do?
envy the friends they are close with?
duh... not my style.
i better just keep this feeling in my heart.
yea, thats me~! =)
everytime when i thought finally i have a friend like this,
things turned the other way round.

should i say, im naive? ( in good term?)
or maybe too stupid? (or you prefer this term?)
or i don deserved to have a friend,
a real good 1?
yea, perhaps.
let me advise you here,
don give promises to anyone,
unless you can fulfill it.
or else you'll be hurting your friend.

true friends,
need no promise but trust.
remember that.
when a friend trusted you,
he/she doesnt need any promise from you anymore.
just wish things don always turn the other way round
whenever i enjoy the moment.

i always have an opinion in my mind,
when you treat a person nice,
he'll treat you nice too.
so if you take him as a friend,
he'll take you AT LEAST as a friend.
if you love and respect your family members,
they'll love and respect you too.

but look like im wrong.
i have to say,
i always treat friends nice.
but.... right, i don know.
maybe i am a bad friend.
some ppl,
don even have to treat ppl nice.
they get friends by their popularity.
i don hate these ppl, just envy.

HELLO?
we dont make friends by this way.
like szely write in her personal message,
friends is a promise made from your heart,
sincerely and faithfully.
i WAS naive, and now,
trying to grow stronger,
trying to act strong, i suppose?

in real life,
don ask me if im ok.
cuz i will answer with a SWEET smile and
say, "im so damn fine. do i look like im having any probs?"
DAMN... i hate this question dude.
im just fine, so dont ask.