new year preparation

before new year, me and my mum were baking cakes and cookies.

Concentrate..... concentrate.....

nice shape...

haha~!

see the black shirt girl with specs? so disturbing... HAHA

too black too black...

my kakak (maid)

arranged nicely in the tupperware.

These were prepared to sell.. HAHA~!

the white thingy is the egg white..

mix it into the mixture

add some Rum (40-50% alchohol)

oh no.... it's burnt~~!! haha..

phew... busy day.
baking cookies and cakes the whole day.
haha~! sorry guys.
my cookies were all gone when i was away.

-J!@rU-

new year eve and new year

new year, finally it's over.
back to normal life.
*sigh* don know what happen actually.
its a happy new year, but...
i was feeling weird.

in this new year,
i promise myself,
i will choose to be alone,
so that i can fully concentrate on SPM.
its a really big thing.
till now i havent fully concentrate on it.
i always scold myself,
asking why am i still playing so much.

HAHA~!
its time to work really hard.
wake up from my fairyland dream and stay alert
all the time.
*sigh* its not easy sometimes.
everyone needs a break, somehow.

i told someone before,
there's nothing we should sad about
in this world.
is it really so?
i don know.
just hope not.
time flies, its almost february.
i just wish,
everyone beside me, including my family and friends,
and perhaps some strangers
to be happy always.

baking cakes for new year

woah... what a busy day.
was baking cakes and cookies these two days.
-tired and sweating-
hot hot hot~!
haha... cuz when i was baking layer cake,
i need to sit beside the hot oven...
=( im becoming a burnt piggy~!
haha..
new year mood ma...

HAHA~! one of my cake was BURNT today~~!!
kanasai onli..
*sigh* so cha meh me
cant upload photos,
cuz connection was damn BAD~!
haiz... nvm.
and for those who are lucky,
i'll give you guys some cookies~~!!
chun hou
huey tyng
chong ping
maybe khaiwei (HAHA)
and you know what?
i'll post it to you, dan.
haha~!

erm....
tomorrow is chuxi d..
haha~! gonna help my grandmum to cook for everyone.
know why?
HAHA
cuz its for the moral project.
=P have to...

new year coming d leh,
not looking forward to it at all.
don know why.
*sigh* i think everyone is the same too.

difference between love and like

today our school was having a cross-country competition.
and guess what?
i get 14th~~!!!
haha, amazing huh? i didnt expect this.
but i wasnt very fit enough.
cuz i vomitted a little halfway and
finally vomitted at the end point. (HAHA)
it means that im weak. =(

nvm about it.
*sigh* a bad news = green house is the LAST again~!
red house is good, too good.

miao si was fainted this morning.
it was no good.
but i could see something....
weichong is sooooo caring.
haha~! this impressed me so much.
what a lucky girl, appreciate him.
(maybe as a friend?)
nvm its none of my business.

bcuz of this,
i realise the difference between love and like.
like = when you're sick, he'll wish you recover fast.
love = when you're sick, he'll standby the whole night,
afraid that you'll wake up in the midnight and cant sleep.

like = when you're in a bad situation, he is worried,
hope that you'll be allright.
love = when you're in a bad situation, he is already ready by your side,
helping you to face the situation, wont leave you alone.

like = if you hurt him, he'll maybe hate you, or get angry.
wonder why you did so.
love = even though you've hurt him deeply,
he doesnt mind about the pain, he'll not stay away and always by your side.
he just wan you to be happy.
if you enjoy doing that, then its ok for him.

loving someone is something good, amazing, touching sometimes.
its hard to see a person love so deeply and
get hurted so deeply too.
*sigh* its a sad story that everyone enjoys it.

-J!@rU-

sickness~~

*sigh*
i've fallen sick
actually its a good thing
and its a bad thing too..
the good thing = ppl care for me more than usual
the bad thing = i feel suck

where the sickness come from?
stress? pressure? the hot weather?
or missing him too much sometimes?
*sigh* i don know...

i unawarely added him as a part of my life
cant get rid of this part so easily anymore
too bad for me...
im was too careless about this

when it comes,
it feels so good and
as if im owning the whole world
when it fades away
im extremely helpless
realise that im addicted to your presence in my world
and yet cant do anything to get rid of the addiction

just hope to talk to him everyday
(if i could)
and see his face every moment i open my eyes
have a sweet memory of me and his
thats what i feel

*sigh* cant continue to be like that anymore
cuz i know i have something more important to do
SPM, right. haiz...
this topic is sickening me
its so important that everyone is so afraid of it
im one of them too.
have to work hard for it
you and i know it
there's no way to escape from it

-J!@rU-

sand and wind?

heard from chun hou today morning
about sand and wind.
(from minyew's blog)
what would you like to be?
sand? or wind?
what is the difference between sand and wind?
sand is solid and wind is gas?
=.= dumbest answer i've ever given.

in desert,
there are nothing but sand and wind.
wind blows in a direction and sand follows.
sand does not have choice, it is weak,
powerless.

according to min yew,
in love matters,
wind is the one who manipulate everything in relationship,
sand is the one who just follow the direction of wind,
cant make its own decision.
so am i sand or wind?
i wish to be wind,
but can i choose?

sometimes we don have choice.
i thought i was the wind,
suddenly, i realised that i am the sand
who does not able to control anything in the relationship.
maybe i should say that
im weak in relationship.
thats so sad huh?

i told myself thousands of times,
that i don believe in love anymore.
its something which is easy to say it, but hard to do it.
when it comes, we are weak and unable to resist it.
i reminded myself to be stronger,
but can i when it comes around?
duh... its always so tough for me.

哎，有时真为自己感到悲哀。
为什么还痴痴地迷惑呢？
明明就很清楚是不应该的，
还这么的傻，
一次又一次地，
把自己摔得见不得人。
-dumbness-
i have to idea what can i do more?

one week... new year resolution

its onli one week the school reopens.
wow... ONE week onli.
heaps of homework, pressure...
hate that.
don have enough everyday.

haha~! but im soo happy and satisfied today.
cuz i've sleep for 3 hours this evening today~~!!
HAHA... crazy huh?
a 3 hours nap can make my day.
haha~~!! amazing.

my new year resolution : -
1. i wan pure happiness.
2.do well in every exam and test.
3.do well in every tennis competition ( haha~! can i?)
4.have a good and healthy social life.
5.get straight A's in SPM~~!!
6.st.john's farewell. (haha, i've waited this day long ago)
7.get enough sleep everyday~~!!
8.get ready for college.
9.have heaps of friends~~!! hehexX..
10.buy alot alot alot of things which i like them very much.

haha~! im crazy huh?
thats why ppl hate school..
haha~! cuz they produce students who are crazy like ME~~!!
=P for me, school is a place which everyone gather together and learn from each other.
i love school, and yet i hate school sometimes.
too stressful for someone like me.
=D but i don know why,
im always relax and happy
haha~! amazing huh?

my friends always laugh at me,
they say im funny, very so girlish, weird(dude i hate this word)
(i prefer the word "special" k?)
so sad~! haha~! they say i have sport-like.
haha~! weird, do i really so "special"?

today, lek was telling me that i was drunk.
(still not awake from yesterday's alchohol?)
haha~! i don know why.
like he said, he spoke to me about 5 times while i just heard once.
why is it like that?
haha~! too busy with homework?
don think so.
not paying attention?
wonder what i was doing at that moment.
haha~! not fully conscious?
haha~! hope i can be fully conscious so i can pay full attention to my
homework and studies.
wish me well man.

kkk, don wanna write too much.
as im afraid that i have nothing to write other days.
haha~~!!

-J!@rU-

A new year, a new life.

Happy new year peeps~~!!


Tell you guys something,
im addicted to computer and online games.
CHAM~!
school is going to reopen very very soon~~~!!
haha, im becoming lazier and lazier during this two-months-holiday.


NVM
cuz new year, new life right?
haha~!
im qute excited about this year studies.
school reopen, im so looking forward to it, i don know why.


haha~! friends, we'll meet each other very soon.
hehe...
between, we have a war to fight to win --- SPM~~!!
its pretty scary for me.
maybe for those who can relax, or maybe cleverer can take it easy.
i hope everyone here can realise how important it is to our future.
study friends STUDY~~!!
its not that im your mother or father,
but just wanna remind you guys about it.
see this friend sooooo damn nice?
HAHA~~!!


to all last-year-form-3 students,
PMR result right?
haha~! congrats to all those who take good result.
those who are not satisfy with their result,
form 4, FIGHT~~!!
cuz you'll be like me, SPM very soon.
hehe... cuz time flies you know?


one year, just passed like that.
year 2008, im really very happy to know friends like you all.
and bcuz i almost drop class,
i treasure our friendship more.
leong
ah lek
zhialun
chungkeat
khaiwei
cheachun
weichong
yuxuan
wanshin
ievonn
chee cheat
jiajia
sherry
joey
shuwhey
minyew
although some of them are not really that close with me,
but still there's friendship between us and it is precious to me, seriously.
so, friends forever?


tennis is my life,
till now it still is.
friends i know from tennis,
no one can replace them, ever.
ievonn
yanqi
lizen
jia an
kian teong
kimberly
peiqi
melissa
eezhou
jikent
karen
its not easy to get friendship like these.
this year 2009 is my LAST YEAR.
oh god, i gonna miss you guys like hell.
sobxX~! i'll find you guys when im free or go to ipoh.
haha~! promise.


and some ppl that appear in my life,
that make some changes to me.
(yea you know you're included in daniel allison)
whether its good or bad,
i appreciate that.
they made me grew stronger and i can differentiate whats wrong and right.
love you guys too~!


year 2008,
good things and bad things happened.
let the good things continue and let the bad things passed.
new year, new life.
we're growing up each day,
and i realise, everything we do, whatever decision we make,
determine our future and life.
i have to be more responsible.
cuz this is my life, ME~~!!



-J!@rU-