因为你

失去你以后
我像断了线的风筝
失去了方向
在黑暗里
寻找渺渺的光芒
找回希望

失去你以后
我像没有双眼的盲人
没有了色彩
在孤独中
寻找一丝丝希望
抓住理想

我知道
没有你的日子
我会很难熬
但我会好好地过下去
让你知道
没有了你
我依然能过得很好

*因为你
在我生命添加了不少色彩
因为你
带给我很甜蜜美好的回忆
因为你
让我讨厌自己的愚蠢无知
因为爱你
勇敢地为自己
推开乌云还自己一片蓝天

把脆弱的一面藏起来
不想让别人知道
因为你
我哭着笑
其实我还爱着你

-J!@rU-

hanging out with friends...

this evening,
me, lek, mun hoe, james, huey tyng,
go out to hang around
watched movie
had our dinner
sing k
wow~! pokkai some more...
lucky james was here
to pay for my dinner
WAHAHAHA~! thanks thanks thanks...
=) next time when got money i belanja you back ok?
haha.. promise lar...

the movie-- the unborn
haiz... idiot me
pay money to scare myself
>< ok i was scared
keep closing my ears and eyes
haha~! so timid...
cant sleep anymore tonight
aiks... have to sleep also
cuz tomorrow cheng beng ma... aduh~!

sing k..
aiyo... its very interesting
haha~! cuz all of us sing very WELL...
haha~~~!! one hour is really
NOT ENOUGH~~!!
its fun, seriously...
come out again some time ok??

haha~! i know i know
huey tyng, you're sooo not satisfied right?
im sorry... i didnt know that chin would do that
haha~! he told you he will bring his friends right?
kok hon told ya too right?
what a guy...
im soooo sorry...

-J!@rU-

aiyo... aiyo...

yeah~! tomorrow jiawen will be home...
i can go out to play.. HAHA~!
syok syok syok~!
we are planning to watch horror movie -- the unborn..
im scared, just a little.. =P
haha~! alright.. im scared...
neh neh neh~! that lek lor...
haha~! its his fault...
abit excited cuz never watch horror movie in cinema before.
aiyoyoyoyo....

haiz... today in school,
what a bad day...
stomachache the whole day
slept in the school.. wahahahaha~~!!
aiyo aiyo...
pity me lar...

-J!@rU-

darn~! are you nut?

yea, im scolding someone
and that "someone" is me myself.
yes i am saying i am scolding myself
so frustrated....
><
the damn f*cking exam results
making my life so miserable
i really hate myself
why am i that stupid and brainless?
argh... its ok its ok ITS OK~!
whatever my results,
my life still goes on
i should be happy, right?

duh... this saturday
wanna go out and have fun with friends
=) so happy~! haha...
i can satisfy easily....
just wanna have fun
hehe...
wanna go watch movie
eat a dinner with friends
sing aloud in the k-box
laugh together with my friends
woohoo~! its gonna be an unforgettable evening
=P haha.. i hope?

im so down recently
just bcuz of this kanasai result....
everyone is asking, whats ur peratus? whats ur peratus?
and now i answer everyone of you..
i get zero.... satisfy with this answer?
fff...
damn... wonder what my brain made of?
nut? bread?

-J!@rU

holiday ends, hard life comes

i guess,
i should start to study hard for spm.
homework haven finished
don even have a study mood
im dead~!

just came back from penang
im so damn tired
bought a nike blouse for huey tyng as her birthday present
hope she'll like it
cuz i think its soooooo wonderful
that i wish i could own it....
sobxX~!
i love it sooo much
i'll give you in school tomorrow RELUCTANTLY
haha~! nah just joking.

promised myself
i'll start studying hard for spm
haha~! but can i?
don think so...
haha~! cuz i know my style
im sooo lazy
recently im so successful
finally i can sleep till 11am..
HAHA~! cuz usually i always try to sleep till very late
and now i've successed~!
congrats me everyone~~!! haha~!

-J!@rU-

its holiday~! and im pokkai...

wow... its been a long time i didnt update my blog.
its ok, its dying already. XP
a week of holiday, just like a weekend.
nothing more else.
just came back from prs camp.
after two days of resting, my leg muscles is still PAIN~!
after applying three to four times of the cream,
it is STILL......... pain.
-suffer-

in the holiday,
im so lazy that i had ponteng at least two tuitions.
haha~! don care anymore.
cuz its holiday now
wahahahaha~! and today, at last
i attend the physic tuition
know why?
cuz i just wanna talk to my friends
a week without friends
oh no, im dying of bore

however, its not that boring this holiday
cuz i went to a camp
and watch movie with my family
and.......
going to penang tomorrow~~!!
woohoo~! haha..
so syok
at last, something excited..
=P shopping~!

i am getting lazier and lazier this holiday
day by day
i feel more and more reluctant to move
haha~! lazy cat jiaru...

cham...
this month i will get scolded by my mum, again.
cuz.................
my phone bill is too high, =P
cham cham...
just bcuz of this,
im still owing my mum 50 ringgit
and now, im pokkai d~~!!
cham cham cham... huey tyng's present?
how wor? ><
don care lar... haha~!

-J!@rU-

my dear friend, happy birthday~!

hey yo...
happy birthday my honey huey tyng...
haha~! a lot of surprises huh?
=P i saw you're so happy today with the presence of
everyone you love.
=) its a good thing...
and im so sorry i havent get you a present...
=( sorry sorry sorry~~!!
i promise i'll get you 1 later, k??
=) its so nice to see you happy till you cry...
happy birthday~!!

-J!@rU-

happy birthday daniel, my life without you..

happy birthday daniel~!
18 year-old-birthday,
i wish you well....
and i know you ARE always well...
=) don be a loner anymore, promise me?
you have ngan,
the girl who rules your everything.
be happy...

erm...
my blog is almost died.
HAHA~!
no time to online and spend my time in front of the comp...
blogging, playing games...
busy with studies is also actually a good thing.
makes me forget the sad things,
makes me move on,
with some aims and targets in my life.

=) i wanna achieve good results in SPM,
wanna be happy always,
wanna study overseas,
(if i can afford to)
HAHA~! get a good job,
and EARN ALOT OF MONEY~~!!!
wahahaha~! =P
and i know i can, =)
HAHA~!
cuz you know what,
my life gets better without you...
XD i hope?

-J!@rU-