my 18th birthday

刚过了生日
十八岁了
好像没什么不同
今年的生日
没有什么盛大的庆祝
其实也没什么好庆祝的啦


不开心
对，我不开心
生日，
应该是我最大吧？
我要什么就有什么对吧？


我不贪心啊，
真的。。。
我什么都不要
我只是想要他陪我一起过生日
礼物，惊喜，
我什么都不要


谁叫我这么体谅他
相信他已经尽他最大的能力了
不想向他撒撒娇
不想给他增加负担
知道他已很内疚了


就是不开心。。。


-J!@rU-

happy? sad? disappointed? tension?

已经好久好久
没有update我的blog了。
最近心情有点复杂

开心
因为我们还有7天就要见面了。
真的很兴奋，也很期待。


担心
你前几天遇上了车祸
哎哟哟～！
唉。。。。 怎么那么不小心？
而且又要见面了

失望
好像大家都得到JPA
只有我
真是没用。。。
比你们起来，
好像真的差太远了。


压力
最近都在考试
想要做到最好
因为成绩
是考给自己的，不是为了谁


考完试过后
就可以疯狂地购物了～！
哈哈哈哈。。。。
有点疯，不理～！
XD 就是要疯要狂


好，
今天就傻到这里。


-J!@rU-

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不是没个人
都曾真正地付出过
在一段感情里
真的是一人给一人拿？
真的那么简单就会幸福？


个人经验
不，
并不是这样的。
两人都给
两人都拿
这样，
或许会比较好吧！


其实我也不懂，
只是猜猜
像任贤齐的歌 - 心太软
相爱是容易
对，没错
相处就不是这么一回事了
不是两人相爱就能够相处得很好


你可以很爱他
但你选择离开他
为了什么？
我想
应该是为了让他更开心吧！
是很伟大吧？
狠下心做这个决定
是很不容易的


我懂
因为我也曾经想狠下心
但我做不到
因为我已不能没有他


-J!@rU-

one week holiday

at last
i've waited for this moment for a very long time
its a one-week-break~~!!!
but trust me
its not that fun or whatever..


休息
是为了走更遥远的路程
这句话
是100%没有错的
After the break guess what?

TEST~~!!!!

great... haiz~!
should i say
its a study break
instead of one-week-holiday?


just hope im able to finish my course
before i die of studying...


-J!@rU-

seriously i hate my life now..

yes...
i hate my life
at the moment..
duh~!
college,
everyone was telling me
it was an enjoyment of life...


not for me....
currently i have too much homework
and assignment to finish...
till i don wanna touch any of them....
i don like homework
i don like assignments
i don like hectic life
cuz they all don belong in my life....


what i wan is just
learning new cool stuff
get some new friends
get my degree and work
maybe by luck
marry to a rich man and don have to work
thats all...
simple as that...
not enjoying my life currently...


-J!@rU-

my college life

hmm...
its been a week since i entered the sunway college.
it wasnt bad,
wasnt that good as well...
everyone is now saying,
"wow~! its tough, i cant really manage the subject."
feel abit nervous about it,
as im not that GENIUS type.


know some new friends
quite alot also actually... XD
i really think i talk too much sometimes.
is this a good thing?
haha~! guess so?


some ppl here
are really nice...
some are quite annoying
some are too crazy
some are too mean
some are too playful
haha~! really lots of different kind of ppl here...
one thing in common -
they're allllll rich....
just how rich they can be.


my class started for a week,
just a week...
and i have 2 assignments now to be done...
>< wan me to suicide meh??


and this weekend
i have NOTHING AT ALL to do...
thanks to a girl called michelle...
=.= im going to kill you one day
duh~!!
she took away my file
which is fulled with my schedule and homework
ON PURPOSE~!!!!
hmph~! next time don wanna accompany you d,
see you how leh... XD
anyway im not that mean
who ask me to be so nice and forgiving? =P
better treat me an expensive meal...
WAHAHAHA~! XD


currently
im still enjoying the college life here
hope that it wont be boring too soon
and i hope that....
=))))
my dearest honey can come to find me...
its always good to have ur company.


-J!@rU-

going to college..

time flies...
im going to college very soon
a good thing or not
im not sure...


i don know how exactly am i feeling right now
nervous, nah..
reluctant? don think so...
just a weird feeling
that cannot be described using words..


im gonna miss taiping
gonna miss my friends here
gonna miss my family here
gonna miss my bed and bolster
and my pillow...
gonna miss my wardrobe
gonna miss the TV
gonna miss my car
and lastly.....
IM GONNA MISS MY MAID
><


i hate house chores...
=(
and i hate living alone...
i guess im gonna be more independent...
i'll miss you guys...
love you all...


-J!@rU-

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some things
don have to say much
you'll just know it...


some feelings
don have to express much
you'll just notice it...


some ppl
don have to meet often
you'll just know that they miss you too...


-J!@rU-

=(

what should i do??

feel so helpless...

new year 2010 - day 1

YER~~!!

this year de chinese new year

no syok de...

bought very little new clothes

cuz no time to go shopping

=(((

thats saddening...

this morning

went to some relatives' house

get some angpau's

before we go.....

at my house,

we took some photos..

cute little cousin...
just like me, WAHAHA~~!!

we are the young generation.. =)

girls team~!! ^^

and its valentine's day too...

he's not here to celebrate with me...

><

kinda disappointed,

but what to do?

haiz...

-J!@rU-

new year eve - reunion lunch

haha~! this is what i saw yesterday
when me and my family
went to tesco for some shopping..

awww....

valentine's day gift for girls - FLOWERS~~!!

look so sweet...

and it's not cheap, darn...

haha~! luckily im the girl...

haha~! my little bro bought some flowers...

for my mom?? haha~~!!

its new year's eve~~~!!

reunion lunch...

look how cute this little baby is... awww... =))

this little cousin is cute as well... ^^

everyone's around the baby...

look how many dishes we prepared for

this reunion lunch...

what a sweet day.. =))

love love...

-J!@rU-

girls, must be understanding???

guys,
always expect girls
to be
understanding
understanding
understanding...


yes
girls have to be understanding
hmm...
but
guys usually take it for granted..
thats saddening...


guys are always busy
no matter what they do
girls have to understand
or else
they will be counted as
NOT UNDERSTANDING
its kinda ridiculous
but what to do?
we're just girls...


valentine's day
will be celebrating alone i guess...
hmm...
he's busy de ma...
i have to be understanding de ma...
big chef,
have to cook for other ppl on this special day
cook for other ppl
but for not his special one....
he better celebrate it later with me...
with bigger present and more surprises
WAHAHAHA~~!!


just get a little disappointed
although i know he loves me much
and misses me when he cooks...
=)


-J!@rU-

lucky jiaru... =P

hmm...
this sunday
valentine's day
first day of chinese day
its a special day i guess


=)
hmmm...
i admit,
im just an ordinary girl
a very ordinary one
but....
=P
guess God loves me more than anyone else...
im very lucky
no complain about it
^^


i don understand why
i dont give both of us a chance to be together
=)
im sorry i've hurted you before
and you're still so faithful..
you're the best guy i've ever met i swear...


-J!@rU-

life is precious...

today
sign in facebook
saw many ppl's status
hoping a girl called boon shin will wake up soon


she's not my friend
but i know who she is
situation like this,
let me realise that
how precious life is...
and i wan her to wake up soon as well...


i'll pray to God
pls,
don let her friends and family down...
she will wake up soon
i know she will...
God bless her...


-J!@rU-

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chinese new year's approaching
hmm...
and i just got my salary...
wanna get myself some new clothes
and maybe hang out with some old friends


these few days
feeling abit weird
haiz...
weird, as in the bad way....
just wanna go out alone,
get some fresh air,
eat something i like to cheer myself up,
buy some stuff....


recently,
im becoming abit afraid of nights
mom and dad quarrel
at night they might shout at each other
i might hear mom crying
then i might cry alone then....
*sigh*
guess i'll sleep early so that i wont have to do that...


just wanna run away from all of these
its just scary...
i dunno
guess im just "weakening"..
XD
i don really have someone to cheer me up
so yea,
have to cheer myself up,
like i always do...


-J!@rU-

back from 1st leg

*sigh*
guess im not good enough
that explains everything...
haiz...


don wanna say much
one word tells all...
LOST..


anyway....
im fine...
=)
just abit disappointed...
thats all

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its been a long time
since i had updated my blog the last time
hmmm....


its pretty difficult to burn the free time
haiz...
working is just.... BORING~~!!
duh...
forget about the high salary
cuz im always late for work
and the salary potong potong potong
=.= nah i don care anymore...
just potong lar...


hmm....
why this year valentine's day is exactly the same day
as the chinese new year?
XD is this a good thing?
i dunno...
no good for those who are in relationship
good for those who are single...
receive angpao, instead of present and surprise?
haha~! it sounds kinda weird...


this thursday i will be going to kl
shopping?? nah...
going to play tennis sports excel...
^^ partner yanqi in doubles ler...
just hope i wont get kicked out at the first round...
=P


guys....
chinese new year wanna come out yumcha??
^^ contact each other pls...
014-9293742 (miss pretty) LOL
perasan d... *just kidding*


-J!@rU-