Its J!@rU's blog~!

my 18th birthday

2010-08-09T03:49:00.000-07:00

刚过了生日
十八岁了
好像没什么不同
今年的生日
没有什么盛大的庆祝
其实也没什么好庆祝的啦

不开心
对，我不开心
生日，
应该是我最大吧？
我要什么就有什么对吧？

我不贪心啊，
真的。。。
我什么都不要
我只是想要他陪我一起过生日
礼物，惊喜，
我什么都不要

谁叫我这么体谅他
相信他已经尽他最大的能力了
不想向他撒撒娇
不想给他增加负担
知道他已很内疚了

就是不开心。。。

-J!@rU-

happy? sad? disappointed? tension?

2010-06-12T20:08:00.002-07:00

已经好久好久
没有update我的blog了。
最近心情有点复杂

开心
因为我们还有7天就要见面了。
真的很兴奋，也很期待。

担心
你前几天遇上了车祸
哎哟哟～！
唉。。。。怎么那么不小心？
而且又要见面了

失望
好像大家都得到JPA
只有我
真是没用。。。
比你们起来，
好像真的差太远了。

压力
最近都在考试
想要做到最好
因为成绩
是考给自己的，不是为了谁

考完试过后
就可以疯狂地购物了～！
哈哈哈哈。。。。
有点疯，不理～！
XD 就是要疯要狂

好，
今天就傻到这里。

-J!@rU-

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2010-04-24T07:25:00.000-07:00

不是没个人
都曾真正地付出过
在一段感情里
真的是一人给一人拿？
真的那么简单就会幸福？

个人经验
不，
并不是这样的。
两人都给
两人都拿
这样，
或许会比较好吧！

其实我也不懂，
只是猜猜
像任贤齐的歌 - 心太软
相爱是容易
对，没错
相处就不是这么一回事了
不是两人相爱就能够相处得很好

你可以很爱他
但你选择离开他
为了什么？
我想
应该是为了让他更开心吧！
是很伟大吧？
狠下心做这个决定
是很不容易的

我懂
因为我也曾经想狠下心
但我做不到
因为我已不能没有他

-J!@rU-

one week holiday

2010-04-23T09:04:00.000-07:00

at last
i've waited for this moment for a very long time
its a one-week-break~~!!!
but trust me
its not that fun or whatever..

休息
是为了走更遥远的路程
这句话
是100%没有错的
After the break guess what?

TEST~~!!!!

great... haiz~!
should i say
its a study break
instead of one-week-holiday?

just hope im able to finish my course
before i die of studying...

-J!@rU-

seriously i hate my life now..

2010-04-19T04:06:00.000-07:00

yes...
i hate my life
at the moment..
duh~!
college,
everyone was telling me
it was an enjoyment of life...

not for me....
currently i have too much homework
and assignment to finish...
till i don wanna touch any of them....
i don like homework
i don like assignments
i don like hectic life
cuz they all don belong in my life....

what i wan is just
learning new cool stuff
get some new friends
get my degree and work
maybe by luck
marry to a rich man and don have to work
thats all...
simple as that...
not enjoying my life currently...

-J!@rU-

my college life

2010-03-27T23:15:00.000-07:00

hmm...
its been a week since i entered the sunway college.
it wasnt bad,
wasnt that good as well...
everyone is now saying,
"wow~! its tough, i cant really manage the subject."
feel abit nervous about it,
as im not that GENIUS type.

know some new friends
quite alot also actually... XD
i really think i talk too much sometimes.
is this a good thing?
haha~! guess so?

some ppl here
are really nice...
some are quite annoying
some are too crazy
some are too mean
some are too playful
haha~! really lots of different kind of ppl here...
one thing in common -
they're allllll rich....
just how rich they can be.

my class started for a week,
just a week...
and i have 2 assignments now to be done...
>< wan me to suicide meh??

and this weekend
i have NOTHING AT ALL to do...
thanks to a girl called michelle...
=.= im going to kill you one day
duh~!!
she took away my file
which is fulled with my schedule and homework
ON PURPOSE~!!!!
hmph~! next time don wanna accompany you d,
see you how leh... XD
anyway im not that mean
who ask me to be so nice and forgiving? =P
better treat me an expensive meal...
WAHAHAHA~! XD

currently
im still enjoying the college life here
hope that it wont be boring too soon
and i hope that....
=))))
my dearest honey can come to find me...
its always good to have ur company.

-J!@rU-

going to college..

2010-03-03T20:50:00.000-08:00

time flies...
im going to college very soon
a good thing or not
im not sure...

i don know how exactly am i feeling right now
nervous, nah..
reluctant? don think so...
just a weird feeling
that cannot be described using words..

im gonna miss taiping
gonna miss my friends here
gonna miss my family here
gonna miss my bed and bolster
and my pillow...
gonna miss my wardrobe
gonna miss the TV
gonna miss my car
and lastly.....
IM GONNA MISS MY MAID
><

i hate house chores...
=(
and i hate living alone...
i guess im gonna be more independent...
i'll miss you guys...
love you all...

-J!@rU-

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2010-02-22T06:19:00.000-08:00

some things
don have to say much
you'll just know it...

some feelings
don have to express much
you'll just notice it...

some ppl
don have to meet often
you'll just know that they miss you too...

-J!@rU-

=(

2010-02-20T04:52:00.000-08:00

what should i do??

feel so helpless...

new year 2010 - day 1

2010-02-14T06:35:00.000-08:00

YER~~!!

this year de chinese new year

no syok de...

bought very little new clothes

cuz no time to go shopping

=(((

thats saddening...

this morning

went to some relatives' house

get some angpau's

before we go.....

at my house,

we took some photos..

cute little cousin...
just like me, WAHAHA~~!!

we are the young generation.. =)

girls team~!! ^^

and its valentine's day too...

he's not here to celebrate with me...

kinda disappointed,

but what to do?

haiz...

-J!@rU-

new year eve - reunion lunch

2010-02-13T00:21:00.000-08:00

haha~! this is what i saw yesterday
when me and my family
went to tesco for some shopping..

awww....

valentine's day gift for girls - FLOWERS~~!!

look so sweet...

and it's not cheap, darn...

haha~! luckily im the girl...

haha~! my little bro bought some flowers...

for my mom?? haha~~!!

its new year's eve~~~!!

reunion lunch...

look how cute this little baby is... awww... =))

this little cousin is cute as well... ^^

everyone's around the baby...

look how many dishes we prepared for

this reunion lunch...

what a sweet day.. =))

love love...

-J!@rU-

girls, must be understanding???

2010-02-12T02:21:00.000-08:00

guys,
always expect girls
to be
understanding
understanding
understanding...

yes
girls have to be understanding
hmm...
but
guys usually take it for granted..
thats saddening...

guys are always busy
no matter what they do
girls have to understand
or else
they will be counted as
NOT UNDERSTANDING
its kinda ridiculous
but what to do?
we're just girls...

valentine's day
will be celebrating alone i guess...
hmm...
he's busy de ma...
i have to be understanding de ma...
big chef,
have to cook for other ppl on this special day
cook for other ppl
but for not his special one....
he better celebrate it later with me...
with bigger present and more surprises
WAHAHAHA~~!!

just get a little disappointed
although i know he loves me much
and misses me when he cooks...
=)

-J!@rU-

lucky jiaru... =P

2010-02-09T06:51:00.000-08:00

hmm...
this sunday
valentine's day
first day of chinese day
its a special day i guess

=)
hmmm...
i admit,
im just an ordinary girl
a very ordinary one
but....
=P
guess God loves me more than anyone else...
im very lucky
no complain about it
^^

i don understand why
i dont give both of us a chance to be together
=)
im sorry i've hurted you before
and you're still so faithful..
you're the best guy i've ever met i swear...

-J!@rU-

life is precious...

2010-02-07T04:59:00.000-08:00

today
sign in facebook
saw many ppl's status
hoping a girl called boon shin will wake up soon

she's not my friend
but i know who she is
situation like this,
let me realise that
how precious life is...
and i wan her to wake up soon as well...

i'll pray to God
pls,
don let her friends and family down...
she will wake up soon
i know she will...
God bless her...

-J!@rU-

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2010-02-02T04:58:00.000-08:00

chinese new year's approaching
hmm...
and i just got my salary...
wanna get myself some new clothes
and maybe hang out with some old friends

these few days
feeling abit weird
haiz...
weird, as in the bad way....
just wanna go out alone,
get some fresh air,
eat something i like to cheer myself up,
buy some stuff....

recently,
im becoming abit afraid of nights
mom and dad quarrel
at night they might shout at each other
i might hear mom crying
then i might cry alone then....
*sigh*
guess i'll sleep early so that i wont have to do that...

just wanna run away from all of these
its just scary...
i dunno
guess im just "weakening"..
XD
i don really have someone to cheer me up
so yea,
have to cheer myself up,
like i always do...

-J!@rU-

back from 1st leg

2010-01-31T05:46:00.000-08:00

*sigh*
guess im not good enough
that explains everything...
haiz...

don wanna say much
one word tells all...
LOST..

anyway....
im fine...
=)
just abit disappointed...
thats all

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2010-01-24T05:18:00.001-08:00

its been a long time
since i had updated my blog the last time
hmmm....

its pretty difficult to burn the free time
haiz...
working is just.... BORING~~!!
duh...
forget about the high salary
cuz im always late for work
and the salary potong potong potong
=.= nah i don care anymore...
just potong lar...

hmm....
why this year valentine's day is exactly the same day
as the chinese new year?
XD is this a good thing?
i dunno...
no good for those who are in relationship
good for those who are single...
receive angpao, instead of present and surprise?
haha~! it sounds kinda weird...

this thursday i will be going to kl
shopping?? nah...
going to play tennis sports excel...
^^ partner yanqi in doubles ler...
just hope i wont get kicked out at the first round...
=P

guys....
chinese new year wanna come out yumcha??
^^ contact each other pls...
014-9293742 (miss pretty) LOL
perasan d... *just kidding*

-J!@rU-

back from bali

2009-12-26T01:40:00.000-08:00

hey guys
im back
from BALI~~!!
^^
and i've bring some souvenir for you guys...
anyway thats not the main point

as you know
indonesia is an islamic country
BUT
in bali
90% of the ppl is hindu
haha~! wow
that really surprises me at the first time

and do you know?
the ppl there is really really friendly
and most importantly,
honest...
they dont steal, rob, cheat...
you can just put your stuff at the vehicles or road side
and surprisingly
it wont to gone~~!!

and things there
are super cheap~!
you can get 45 key chains for about RM8
HAHA~! =P

about the beaches
hmm...
i really dunno what to say
i tot bali is famous for its beaches
BUT
have to see the location
some of the beaches
are really just KANASAI..
XD
but heard from my friend
(which stayed at the different town in bali)
bali has really beautiful beach
so yea, i dunno...

i don wanna talk much
just,
its worth to visit bali..
^^ really~!
cheap, fun, and convenient...
I LOVE BALI~~!!

-J!@rU-

twilight saga - new moon

2009-12-09T04:49:00.000-08:00

yes yes yes
i watched it today
it was fine
just fine...
the main character - edward
did not really attract me much

haha~! i like the jacob guy..
he looks so mannnnn...
gosh... and look at the body
sooooo muscular~! <3333
XD

and the jacob guy is so protective...
>< so sweeeeeet....

not confident, at all...

2009-11-19T02:51:00.000-08:00

let see....
hmmm...
its the 2nd day of spm
i don think i can take this anymore
history
yea... thats everyone's nightmare
mine especially

i think i did very very badly today
i hope God will still gimme an A
i hope He will gimme confidence
and help me along this journey

i dunno
how many A's i can get
i dunno
what college i will enter
i don even what should i do now

my mind is blank..... blank.... blank...
may God bless me...

my graduation day

2009-11-05T23:56:00.000-08:00

celebrate in pizza hut after our graduation day...

yum yum yum~~!!

took picture in front of our class

love-shaped 5sc1

tsk tsk tsk...

see how much we love him??

khai wei... don act yeng lar...

you think you model meh?

under the big big tree

beautiful scenary right??

together we chase our dream~~!!

feeling so strange

should be feeling, shouldnt i??

graduate, is a good thing

i felt a little reluctant,

perhaps just a little...

singing together on the performance stage,

its our fate to know each other...

if i said i was not sad, even a little,

i was lying then...

haha~!! can you find me... =P

im standing in a special place... ^^

graduation is a good thing... =)

QTI

2009-10-31T03:05:00.000-07:00

^^
look at this emoticon
haha~!
I'VE PASSED MY QTI~~!!
=P

im so gonna take my test before spm
^^ then everything would be easier
right right right??
then after spm straight go celebrate~~!!
WAHAHAHA...

impressive~~!!

2009-10-24T00:49:00.000-07:00

^^
you know whats sooooo impressive??
i studied history, biology and
i finally finish my add-maths exercises...
haha~! wee wee wee....

thats something impressed me as well...
haha~! i've driven 6 hours...
and now i have 4 hours of driving left~~!!
^^ see see see??

haha~! i know you guys can do better than me
much much better than me...
but... gimme a little compliment ler...
=P haha~!
give each other a little support ma...
rite rite rite??

-J!@rU-

carrie underwood - i'll stand by you

2009-09-26T20:30:00.000-07:00

Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby
You feeling all alone
You won't be on your own
I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

Oh I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you

-J!@rU-

my very first time of driving a car

2009-09-26T03:54:00.000-07:00

wow wow wow...
i never imagined i will drive a car
ppl fetch me everyday
and i have nothing to worry

i always thought driving a car is simply nothing
too easy for me to think about it
and now i realise
i am so wrong
XD
i even laughed at myself during driving
i kept sweating and laughing
until my coach laughed at me as well

i felt a little embarrassed
but actually
i was having my fun,
drivin my own car
^^ im serious...
side parking is kinda complicated
but i think i'll get used to it if i practise more..
=)))))))
im so excited to get my drivin lisence~~~!!!

^^
wish me luck~~!!

-J!@rU-

Colbie Caillat - Fallin for you

2009-09-24T23:22:00.000-07:00

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh Oh no no
OooooohhhOh I'm fallin' for you

Its a nice song.. ^^
so sweet...

-J!@rU-

wealth

2009-09-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

money
this is one of the trial english essay questions...
and i choose this question
cuz i dunno what else to write
im sure i did badly in the essay

we always watch scenes of fighting
argue and fight over money
its common in dramas
but have you ever experienced it in your family?

it sounds stupid, i know
but it will happen
when you come to adult world
its so complicated until we might forget
what we called "family"

its horrible
when everyone's face
is either crying like hell
or completely impassive
even a little money
or a piece of junk worth hundreds or thousands
can cause a fight?
HAHAHA...
that really sounds ridiculous, to me...
maybe onli to me, i dunno

a fight over money
sounds normal
but its definitely idiotic, trust me...

-J!@rU-

aging XD

2009-07-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

waa...
recently start to study d...
slow-progressing
sejarah, duh~!
read and forget
i wonder whats the point keep reading the book
CHEH~!
biology too
luckily got some chapters "interesting" abit de..

recently old d,
haha~!
9 something in the night
feel sleepy d
dying soon izit?
XD dunno lar...
but compare to ah lek
im much better
cuz the old man sleep from 3 in the afternoon till the next morning
GENG~! *salute*
haha... dying soon dyin soon..

have to study more and faster d
worried cannot finish revising
*sigh*
hope i can still alive till spm ends
god bless me..

4-in-1 day

2009-06-27T07:08:00.000-07:00

the 4-in-1 day
parents' day
canteen day
hari koko
and hari koperasi

what a busy day
*sigh* but its a boring day as well
my results suck like hell
get used to it
cuz im not clever
or hardworking
im just an ordinary girl
not special not all

don expect too much from me
cuz you'll be disappointed at the end of the day
don be so demanding
cuz you'll get nothing from me

i hope you will understand this
cuz im really just an very ordinary girl
expecting too much
will gimme alot of pressure

i always try to be a better one
try to be an outstanding one
the best one, maybe? =P
=)

understanding..

2009-06-25T01:05:00.000-07:00

hmmm...
how to get started leh?
i heard a story from one of my friends
a girl named A and a guy named B
A likes B alot
they are a couple
but B finds out that
she's a little bossy..
maybe more
she is so demanding,
that B cant stand it...
B is not allowed to talk to other girls
even if B is tired at night, he must accompany A

finally B breaks up with A
but A still likes B, alot
they remain as friend
A demand B treat her like his gf
but B just treats her like a friend
now A is very disappointed,
cuz B does not give as much as commitment like she expected

from this story
i think,
A should be more understanding
so what do you think?

yeah yeah yeah~!

2009-06-02T01:41:00.000-07:00

phew~! at last...
exam was over
two weeks of sleepless nights
it was scary
study non stop
wow... don even wanna picture it

tennis training phase 2
it was quite tiring
physical training everyday
run run run~~~!!
*sigh sigh sigh*
new racquet~~!! haha..
[K] six
woo hoo~~!!
for me, its quite heavy,
why everyday said its light???

tomorrow going to ipoh
to stay for a night
then the next day 3 am
going to KLIA,
woo~~!!
for a flight to SARAWAK~~~!!!
haha... so excited...

*sigh*
joey's blog said,
love someone is tiring,
being loved by someone is like owing them..
its true...
cant deny it...
being loved is not wrong peeps~~!!
HMPH~~!!

给你的信

2009-05-08T18:22:00.000-07:00

我们之间
是怎么了？
距离越来越远
怎么会这样？
是因为有别人吗？
你每次都说
我们的关系
就是这样的
可是
真的是如此吗？
我不知道

每次看见你对其他人的态度
轻声细语
有温柔地微笑
我
就这样特别？
得不到这些东西

我
总是很在乎你
可最近
还是觉得
保持距离
其实并没有什么不好
我不要求多
对我
像朋友那么普通
就好

就这样
不想讲太多
你很聪明
应该会懂

duh~! helpless

2009-04-25T06:56:00.000-07:00

*sighhhh*
what happened to me?
duh duh duh...
keep sighing whole day
haizzzzzz...

tired? maybe...
add-math dunno how to do
cant go to tuition
tennis competition-- msspk
i should be happy cuz can meet my friends there
but what about homework here?

helpless
what can i do?
wait to get the last placing in the exam in may?
damn me...
just hope someone can gimme his/her time
someone who didnt need it?
perhaps
like those rubbish ppl
24 hours is definately not enough
for my life now

if i have 30 hours in my life
if i can sleep onli 3 hours without getting tired
if i can finish study within 1 hour
HAHA~! thats so impossible
just kill me

im so frustrated
do add-math until so frustrated
!!!
cuz i dunno how to do~~~~~
=(
so happy lor you all?
i get the last placing ar..
happy lor?
sc 1 ppl -- selfish

hmph~~!!
yes yes yes
i AM scolding you right now
if you do understand
you fatty, idiot, pig.
haha~! i hope you get fatter and fatter
uglier and uglier
just get stupider and stupider
i hope ur hair curl like the WIRE
ur pride
selfishness
i hope i can kill them all

ah nvm
its not worth to get angry with you piggy
宽容嘛
i will... =)
just get away from my vision
i will be thankful for that sincerely XD

makan makan makan...

2009-04-24T08:50:00.000-07:00

chilis in gurney plaza, penang.

look at my bro's face... XD

my father is staring at you...

idiot patrick, you look funny... XD

bbq plaza in 1 U

cheap and nice... whoo~~!!

*hungry*

-J!@rU-

终于，我也有这一天

2009-04-10T02:07:00.000-07:00

真没想到，我也会有这么down的一天。
难得难得，我也知道啦！
有些情绪用华文比较容易讲明白
最近的我，是怎么了？
嗟夫～！哈哈。。。。
（华文的古文，嗟夫：唉）

是，我承认
我不想别人看见我脆弱的一面
也许，你们会更好奇
也许，你们会关心
也许，你们会八卦
也许，你们会猜测到底发生了什么事

不是我自私
不是我自闭
不是我伪君子（屁～！列俊豪）
只是不想让别人认为我博取同情
不需要，so 就让沉默和时间
慢慢地冲淡一切

很难得，
我今天把自己的情绪放出来
还蛮多人发现的
but 那个笨蛋凯威
快点长大啦～！幼稚到。。。。。
明知道我心情不好
还一直欺负我，打下去～～！！

我
觉得
我没事了
希望真的是如此吧！

choices..

2009-04-04T02:41:00.000-07:00

in evereone's life
we DO have choices
to be happy?
to be lonely?
to be sad?
to be miserable?
make ur life exciting?
make ur life dull like hell?

believe me when i say this,
we really do have choicessss.
of cuz,
in love matter we cant choose who we love,
cuz its fate, TAKDIR~!
haha~! but,
when we love someone,
must we be sad and miserable,
if we couldnt have our beloved?

NO NO NO~~!!
you're definately wrong wrong wrong..
i know, its hurting so much...
but pls, don ruin the whole life
just bcuz of someone who doesnt love you

smile,
make them know that
not choosing you is their loss.
choose to be happy,
be so fine, without them.
make them regret for not seeing ur beautiful and fineness.

do not cry,
for them who doesnt care for you.
you know you can do it.
believe me,
you know you'll be fine without them.

-J!@rU-

April fool~~!!

2009-04-01T04:36:00.001-07:00

haha~!
so today is april fool...
go to school as usual
form 5, 17 years old
nobody fool around anymore
all we mind is SPM SPM and
SPM~~~!!

all we care
is onli SPM??
no real life anymore?
no jokes around us...
no fooling each other in the class...
whoever fooling around,
everyone will ask him/her,
how old are you now?
haha~! aiyo... ke lian ke lian...

ah mak ar... you fooled me at the wrong time
i was so damn "=.="
no mood to play with you ar...
aiyoyoo~~!!
paiseh ar...
=P

-J!@rU-

因为你

2009-03-29T00:41:00.000-07:00

失去你以后
我像断了线的风筝
失去了方向
在黑暗里
寻找渺渺的光芒
找回希望

失去你以后
我像没有双眼的盲人
没有了色彩
在孤独中
寻找一丝丝希望
抓住理想

我知道
没有你的日子
我会很难熬
但我会好好地过下去
让你知道
没有了你
我依然能过得很好

*因为你
在我生命添加了不少色彩
因为你
带给我很甜蜜美好的回忆
因为你
让我讨厌自己的愚蠢无知
因为爱你
勇敢地为自己
推开乌云还自己一片蓝天

把脆弱的一面藏起来
不想让别人知道
因为你
我哭着笑
其实我还爱着你

-J!@rU-

hanging out with friends...

2009-03-28T07:54:00.000-07:00

this evening,
me, lek, mun hoe, james, huey tyng,
go out to hang around
watched movie
had our dinner
sing k
wow~! pokkai some more...
lucky james was here
to pay for my dinner
WAHAHAHA~! thanks thanks thanks...
=) next time when got money i belanja you back ok?
haha.. promise lar...

the movie-- the unborn
haiz... idiot me
pay money to scare myself
>< ok i was scared
keep closing my ears and eyes
haha~! so timid...
cant sleep anymore tonight
aiks... have to sleep also
cuz tomorrow cheng beng ma... aduh~!

sing k..
aiyo... its very interesting
haha~! cuz all of us sing very WELL...
haha~~~!! one hour is really
NOT ENOUGH~~!!
its fun, seriously...
come out again some time ok??

haha~! i know i know
huey tyng, you're sooo not satisfied right?
im sorry... i didnt know that chin would do that
haha~! he told you he will bring his friends right?
kok hon told ya too right?
what a guy...
im soooo sorry...

-J!@rU-

aiyo... aiyo...

2009-03-27T08:26:00.000-07:00

yeah~! tomorrow jiawen will be home...
i can go out to play.. HAHA~!
syok syok syok~!
we are planning to watch horror movie -- the unborn..
im scared, just a little.. =P
haha~! alright.. im scared...
neh neh neh~! that lek lor...
haha~! its his fault...
abit excited cuz never watch horror movie in cinema before.
aiyoyoyoyo....

haiz... today in school,
what a bad day...
stomachache the whole day
slept in the school.. wahahahaha~~!!
aiyo aiyo...
pity me lar...

-J!@rU-

darn~! are you nut?

2009-03-25T01:44:00.000-07:00

yea, im scolding someone
and that "someone" is me myself.
yes i am saying i am scolding myself
so frustrated....
><
the damn f*cking exam results
making my life so miserable
i really hate myself
why am i that stupid and brainless?
argh... its ok its ok ITS OK~!
whatever my results,
my life still goes on
i should be happy, right?

duh... this saturday
wanna go out and have fun with friends
=) so happy~! haha...
i can satisfy easily....
just wanna have fun
hehe...
wanna go watch movie
eat a dinner with friends
sing aloud in the k-box
laugh together with my friends
woohoo~! its gonna be an unforgettable evening
=P haha.. i hope?

im so down recently
just bcuz of this kanasai result....
everyone is asking, whats ur peratus? whats ur peratus?
and now i answer everyone of you..
i get zero.... satisfy with this answer?
fff...
damn... wonder what my brain made of?
nut? bread?

-J!@rU

holiday ends, hard life comes

2009-03-22T04:02:00.000-07:00

i guess,
i should start to study hard for spm.
homework haven finished
don even have a study mood
im dead~!

just came back from penang
im so damn tired
bought a nike blouse for huey tyng as her birthday present
hope she'll like it
cuz i think its soooooo wonderful
that i wish i could own it....
sobxX~!
i love it sooo much
i'll give you in school tomorrow RELUCTANTLY
haha~! nah just joking.

promised myself
i'll start studying hard for spm
haha~! but can i?
don think so...
haha~! cuz i know my style
im sooo lazy
recently im so successful
finally i can sleep till 11am..
HAHA~! cuz usually i always try to sleep till very late
and now i've successed~!
congrats me everyone~~!! haha~!

-J!@rU-

its holiday~! and im pokkai...

2009-03-20T08:14:00.000-07:00

wow... its been a long time i didnt update my blog.
its ok, its dying already. XP
a week of holiday, just like a weekend.
nothing more else.
just came back from prs camp.
after two days of resting, my leg muscles is still PAIN~!
after applying three to four times of the cream,
it is STILL......... pain.
-suffer-

in the holiday,
im so lazy that i had ponteng at least two tuitions.
haha~! don care anymore.
cuz its holiday now
wahahahaha~! and today, at last
i attend the physic tuition
know why?
cuz i just wanna talk to my friends
a week without friends
oh no, im dying of bore

however, its not that boring this holiday
cuz i went to a camp
and watch movie with my family
and.......
going to penang tomorrow~~!!
woohoo~! haha..
so syok
at last, something excited..
=P shopping~!

i am getting lazier and lazier this holiday
day by day
i feel more and more reluctant to move
haha~! lazy cat jiaru...

cham...
this month i will get scolded by my mum, again.
cuz.................
my phone bill is too high, =P
cham cham...
just bcuz of this,
im still owing my mum 50 ringgit
and now, im pokkai d~~!!
cham cham cham... huey tyng's present?
how wor? ><
don care lar... haha~!

-J!@rU-

my dear friend, happy birthday~!

2009-03-14T08:45:00.000-07:00

hey yo...
happy birthday my honey huey tyng...
haha~! a lot of surprises huh?
=P i saw you're so happy today with the presence of
everyone you love.
=) its a good thing...
and im so sorry i havent get you a present...
=( sorry sorry sorry~~!!
i promise i'll get you 1 later, k??
=) its so nice to see you happy till you cry...
happy birthday~!!

-J!@rU-

happy birthday daniel, my life without you..

2009-03-08T03:24:00.000-07:00

happy birthday daniel~!
18 year-old-birthday,
i wish you well....
and i know you ARE always well...
=) don be a loner anymore, promise me?
you have ngan,
the girl who rules your everything.
be happy...

erm...
my blog is almost died.
HAHA~!
no time to online and spend my time in front of the comp...
blogging, playing games...
busy with studies is also actually a good thing.
makes me forget the sad things,
makes me move on,
with some aims and targets in my life.

=) i wanna achieve good results in SPM,
wanna be happy always,
wanna study overseas,
(if i can afford to)
HAHA~! get a good job,
and EARN ALOT OF MONEY~~!!!
wahahaha~! =P
and i know i can, =)
HAHA~!
cuz you know what,
my life gets better without you...
XD i hope?

-J!@rU-

pizza hut --->> what a goood service and foooooddd...

2009-02-21T05:31:00.000-08:00

today we had a simple birthday party at pizza hut.
at first, i thought it would be a great party,
cuz there would have me, lek, and leong.

and who knows?
jack who promised to come,
sms to lek 30 minutes after the birthday dinner started :
"i wont be there. sorry. my mum cant bring me there."
at that moment,
lek's face changed.
he's angry~~!!

however, we continued the dinner.
it was going fine. just fine.
chung keat who are the nicest person in the world,
accompanied lek for his birthday.
not eating anything but wanted to pay.
aiks~! =)
how would a person in this world do such a sweet thing?
he just had a sip of the mushroom soup, thats all.
and handed lek a 10 ringgit note.
love him~~!!

since today was lek's birthday,
we could have a free pizza -- a special birthday pizza.
we all thought it would be great to have a free pizza...

BUUUUUUT,
after 2 hours we waited there,
and at least 5 times of reminds,
the pizza was still not in sight~~!!
we ARE so angry.
still ARE so angry...

at last, my mum came to help...
HAHA~! my heroine.... (perhaps lek's too)
she complaint to those fucking stupid waiters and waitresses.
and they didnt even wanna do anything.
at last, she wanted to call the supervisor,
who was hiding inside, i suppose.
she promised to give the birthday pizza in 15 minutes.

FINALLY, the pizza came.
but it was already very late.
we didnt wan to argue anymore with those BABI.
lazy d you know???

we decided to make a complain through the suggestion box.
i wonder do they ever take these suggestion seriously....

lek version :
Are you in the gang of those shitty shits?
If you are, don bother to read this.
I hereby demand your utmost attention regarding the attitude your workers prossess.
firstly, i deserve a birthday pizza as today is my bithday.
but it never come to my table at all, AT ALL shall i emphasize?
it was frustrating to keep on reminding your reluctant workers over and over again,
at least 4 times.
and it is still not in sight.
im totally pissed and upset.
sorry but fuck you.

my version : ( in malay as i afraid that those babi don understand )
bila saya mau nama waiter yang ambil order untuk buat complain,
tau apa mereka buat?
mereka yang perempuan sedang BERGODA-GODA lelaki yang masak pizza
di dalam sementara saya berdiri di sana seperti orang bodoh.

tujuan saya buat complain :
(i) pelayan BODOH macam BABI~!! birthday pizza tidak nampak bayang pun.
sudah tunggu 5 minit, eh bukan bukan, lagi tambah satu jam lagi kot.
(ii) sikap pelayan yang tidak endah-endah
sudah complain kepada pekerja awak yang BODOH, kata mereka
pizza itu mungkin tidak akan datang lagi, KERANA
mereka kata sangat BUSY.
saya tunggu sampai dinosaur pun sudah pupus.

how could they say this??
aduhai~~!! what a "gooooddd" service~!
i pity you lek.
haiz~! but its ok.
happy birthday lek...

-J!@rU-

happy birthday to lek, joey, daniel allison

2009-02-20T07:42:00.000-08:00

hey lek...
happy birthday man....
i cant get you a present right now,
cuz i have no time to buy 1,
im sorry~! =P

recently im so damn bloody busy.
sobxX~! homework,
pressure me more and more every single day.
i almost forget about the pain,
that hurted me alot, i suppose.
it is a good thing.
i still miss him alot though. =(
duh im useless.

its time to start the revision for SPM,
think so...
HAHA~!
BUT i always forget what i had read after one week.
i have BAD memory.
duh duh duh.

joey's birthday is coming too.
happy birthday to you 1st,
as im afraid that i don have chance to wish you.
=) enjoy...

tomorrow im going to pizza hut
with lek and whoever they are...
HAHA~!
how many ppl do you actually invite??
aiks, no planning at all....
nvm nvm nvm,
cuz birthday boy the greatest that day.
so we have to prepare for the unplanned birthday party.
=P just joking
even though it is not well-planned like rich woman,
but i believe that it'll be great and fun.

huey tyng's birthday party.....
haiz, -troubled look-
what present should i get for her?????
-thinking deeply, deeeeeeeeeppplyyy-
damn damn damn....
hmmmm... should i get her some clothes?
nah, no way~!
im pokkai-ing right now at this moment.
perhaps some mascara and make-up thingy??
i know nothing about them.
duh... still thinking so hard.

i would like to announce something here,
everybody, listen well.
daniel allison's birthday is coming too~~!!
8th march.
i wish you to have a happpppyyy birthday,
this early,
as i don have the time to online always.
HAHA~~!!
maybe i'll give you your present when you're here...
=) just be happy always.

-J!@rU-

roses, roses, everywhere.

2009-02-07T23:19:00.000-08:00

origami roses

i folded the two big roses.

the pink, little rose is from miao si.

(im not an expert yet, cant make a small 1 since it's complicated)

i've learnt for about three days

and finally i can make a beautiful 1.

=( thats sad huh?

girls always make beautiful origami,

but me? nah...

the yellow and the red roses,

is for allllllll the friends that i love deeply.

and my family.

valentine day is coming so soon.

one week 7 days.

so i wish every couple or everyone who don have a partner

happy valentine day~!

according to my dad,

valentine day should be celebrated together with the whole family,

cuz he loves the whole family.

HAHA~!

my cute and funny dad.

whoever wan origami roses,

feel free to tell me.

i ONLI charge 1 ringgit per rose.

HAHA~! its sooooo cheap you know?

=P (just joking)

but for some ppl who are special

i don charge.

HAHA~! like daniel,

ievonn(i'll give you a white 1),

yanqi,

khaiwei(if you still dunno how to make 1),

huey tyng,

and my family.

give some comments on my roses,

cuz my teacher said it doesnt look like a rose,

but a tulip.

weird~! haha...

for daniel allison onli ---

i'll post your blue rose on the next blog.

XD yellow represents friendship

red represents love.

whats blue representing??

haha..

now then, i realise...

2009-02-02T09:11:00.001-08:00

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*
don even know how to express my feeling right now..
of cuz, its a bad feeling,
that shouldnt i feel in real life.
duh, what am i talking about?
everyone that are close with me,
they seem like getting further and further away,
away from me...

what can i do?
envy the friends they are close with?
duh... not my style.
i better just keep this feeling in my heart.
yea, thats me~! =)
everytime when i thought finally i have a friend like this,
things turned the other way round.

should i say, im naive? ( in good term?)
or maybe too stupid? (or you prefer this term?)
or i don deserved to have a friend,
a real good 1?
yea, perhaps.
let me advise you here,
don give promises to anyone,
unless you can fulfill it.
or else you'll be hurting your friend.

true friends,
need no promise but trust.
remember that.
when a friend trusted you,
he/she doesnt need any promise from you anymore.
just wish things don always turn the other way round
whenever i enjoy the moment.

i always have an opinion in my mind,
when you treat a person nice,
he'll treat you nice too.
so if you take him as a friend,
he'll take you AT LEAST as a friend.
if you love and respect your family members,
they'll love and respect you too.

but look like im wrong.
i have to say,
i always treat friends nice.
but.... right, i don know.
maybe i am a bad friend.
some ppl,
don even have to treat ppl nice.
they get friends by their popularity.
i don hate these ppl, just envy.

HELLO?
we dont make friends by this way.
like szely write in her personal message,
friends is a promise made from your heart,
sincerely and faithfully.
i WAS naive, and now,
trying to grow stronger,
trying to act strong, i suppose?

in real life,
don ask me if im ok.
cuz i will answer with a SWEET smile and
say, "im so damn fine. do i look like im having any probs?"
DAMN... i hate this question dude.
im just fine, so dont ask.

new year preparation

2009-01-31T20:40:00.000-08:00

before new year, me and my mum were baking cakes and cookies.

Concentrate..... concentrate.....

nice shape...

haha~!

see the black shirt girl with specs? so disturbing... HAHA

too black too black...

my kakak (maid)

arranged nicely in the tupperware.

These were prepared to sell.. HAHA~!

the white thingy is the egg white..

mix it into the mixture

add some Rum (40-50% alchohol)

oh no.... it's burnt~~!! haha..

phew... busy day.
baking cookies and cakes the whole day.
haha~! sorry guys.
my cookies were all gone when i was away.

-J!@rU-

new year eve and new year

2009-01-31T01:49:00.000-08:00

new year, finally it's over.
back to normal life.
*sigh* don know what happen actually.
its a happy new year, but...
i was feeling weird.

in this new year,
i promise myself,
i will choose to be alone,
so that i can fully concentrate on SPM.
its a really big thing.
till now i havent fully concentrate on it.
i always scold myself,
asking why am i still playing so much.

HAHA~!
its time to work really hard.
wake up from my fairyland dream and stay alert
all the time.
*sigh* its not easy sometimes.
everyone needs a break, somehow.

i told someone before,
there's nothing we should sad about
in this world.
is it really so?
i don know.
just hope not.
time flies, its almost february.
i just wish,
everyone beside me, including my family and friends,
and perhaps some strangers
to be happy always.

baking cakes for new year

2009-01-24T06:51:00.000-08:00

woah... what a busy day.
was baking cakes and cookies these two days.
-tired and sweating-
hot hot hot~!
haha... cuz when i was baking layer cake,
i need to sit beside the hot oven...
=( im becoming a burnt piggy~!
haha..
new year mood ma...

HAHA~! one of my cake was BURNT today~~!!
kanasai onli..
*sigh* so cha meh me
cant upload photos,
cuz connection was damn BAD~!
haiz... nvm.
and for those who are lucky,
i'll give you guys some cookies~~!!
chun hou
huey tyng
chong ping
maybe khaiwei (HAHA)
and you know what?
i'll post it to you, dan.
haha~!

erm....
tomorrow is chuxi d..
haha~! gonna help my grandmum to cook for everyone.
know why?
HAHA
cuz its for the moral project.
=P have to...

new year coming d leh,
not looking forward to it at all.
don know why.
*sigh* i think everyone is the same too.

difference between love and like

2009-01-23T07:50:00.000-08:00

today our school was having a cross-country competition.
and guess what?
i get 14th~~!!!
haha, amazing huh? i didnt expect this.
but i wasnt very fit enough.
cuz i vomitted a little halfway and
finally vomitted at the end point. (HAHA)
it means that im weak. =(

nvm about it.
*sigh* a bad news = green house is the LAST again~!
red house is good, too good.

miao si was fainted this morning.
it was no good.
but i could see something....
weichong is sooooo caring.
haha~! this impressed me so much.
what a lucky girl, appreciate him.
(maybe as a friend?)
nvm its none of my business.

bcuz of this,
i realise the difference between love and like.
like = when you're sick, he'll wish you recover fast.
love = when you're sick, he'll standby the whole night,
afraid that you'll wake up in the midnight and cant sleep.

like = when you're in a bad situation, he is worried,
hope that you'll be allright.
love = when you're in a bad situation, he is already ready by your side,
helping you to face the situation, wont leave you alone.

like = if you hurt him, he'll maybe hate you, or get angry.
wonder why you did so.
love = even though you've hurt him deeply,
he doesnt mind about the pain, he'll not stay away and always by your side.
he just wan you to be happy.
if you enjoy doing that, then its ok for him.

loving someone is something good, amazing, touching sometimes.
its hard to see a person love so deeply and
get hurted so deeply too.
*sigh* its a sad story that everyone enjoys it.

-J!@rU-

sickness~~

2009-01-17T03:55:00.000-08:00

*sigh*
i've fallen sick
actually its a good thing
and its a bad thing too..
the good thing = ppl care for me more than usual
the bad thing = i feel suck

where the sickness come from?
stress? pressure? the hot weather?
or missing him too much sometimes?
*sigh* i don know...

i unawarely added him as a part of my life
cant get rid of this part so easily anymore
too bad for me...
im was too careless about this

when it comes,
it feels so good and
as if im owning the whole world
when it fades away
im extremely helpless
realise that im addicted to your presence in my world
and yet cant do anything to get rid of the addiction

just hope to talk to him everyday
(if i could)
and see his face every moment i open my eyes
have a sweet memory of me and his
thats what i feel

*sigh* cant continue to be like that anymore
cuz i know i have something more important to do
SPM, right. haiz...
this topic is sickening me
its so important that everyone is so afraid of it
im one of them too.
have to work hard for it
you and i know it
there's no way to escape from it

-J!@rU-

sand and wind?

2009-01-14T07:09:00.002-08:00

heard from chun hou today morning
about sand and wind.
(from minyew's blog)
what would you like to be?
sand? or wind?
what is the difference between sand and wind?
sand is solid and wind is gas?
=.= dumbest answer i've ever given.

in desert,
there are nothing but sand and wind.
wind blows in a direction and sand follows.
sand does not have choice, it is weak,
powerless.

according to min yew,
in love matters,
wind is the one who manipulate everything in relationship,
sand is the one who just follow the direction of wind,
cant make its own decision.
so am i sand or wind?
i wish to be wind,
but can i choose?

sometimes we don have choice.
i thought i was the wind,
suddenly, i realised that i am the sand
who does not able to control anything in the relationship.
maybe i should say that
im weak in relationship.
thats so sad huh?

i told myself thousands of times,
that i don believe in love anymore.
its something which is easy to say it, but hard to do it.
when it comes, we are weak and unable to resist it.
i reminded myself to be stronger,
but can i when it comes around?
duh... its always so tough for me.

哎，有时真为自己感到悲哀。
为什么还痴痴地迷惑呢？
明明就很清楚是不应该的，
还这么的傻，
一次又一次地，
把自己摔得见不得人。
-dumbness-
i have to idea what can i do more?

one week... new year resolution

2009-01-09T06:30:00.000-08:00

its onli one week the school reopens.
wow... ONE week onli.
heaps of homework, pressure...
hate that.
don have enough everyday.

haha~! but im soo happy and satisfied today.
cuz i've sleep for 3 hours this evening today~~!!
HAHA... crazy huh?
a 3 hours nap can make my day.
haha~~!! amazing.

my new year resolution : -
1. i wan pure happiness.
2.do well in every exam and test.
3.do well in every tennis competition ( haha~! can i?)
4.have a good and healthy social life.
5.get straight A's in SPM~~!!
6.st.john's farewell. (haha, i've waited this day long ago)
7.get enough sleep everyday~~!!
8.get ready for college.
9.have heaps of friends~~!! hehexX..
10.buy alot alot alot of things which i like them very much.

haha~! im crazy huh?
thats why ppl hate school..
haha~! cuz they produce students who are crazy like ME~~!!
=P for me, school is a place which everyone gather together and learn from each other.
i love school, and yet i hate school sometimes.
too stressful for someone like me.
=D but i don know why,
im always relax and happy
haha~! amazing huh?

my friends always laugh at me,
they say im funny, very so girlish, weird(dude i hate this word)
(i prefer the word "special" k?)
so sad~! haha~! they say i have sport-like.
haha~! weird, do i really so "special"?

today, lek was telling me that i was drunk.
(still not awake from yesterday's alchohol?)
haha~! i don know why.
like he said, he spoke to me about 5 times while i just heard once.
why is it like that?
haha~! too busy with homework?
don think so.
not paying attention?
wonder what i was doing at that moment.
haha~! not fully conscious?
haha~! hope i can be fully conscious so i can pay full attention to my
homework and studies.
wish me well man.

kkk, don wanna write too much.
as im afraid that i have nothing to write other days.
haha~~!!

-J!@rU-

A new year, a new life.

2009-01-01T18:59:00.000-08:00

Happy new year peeps~~!!

Tell you guys something,
im addicted to computer and online games.
CHAM~!
school is going to reopen very very soon~~~!!
haha, im becoming lazier and lazier during this two-months-holiday.

NVM
cuz new year, new life right?
haha~!
im qute excited about this year studies.
school reopen, im so looking forward to it, i don know why.

haha~! friends, we'll meet each other very soon.
hehe...
between, we have a war to fight to win --- SPM~~!!
its pretty scary for me.
maybe for those who can relax, or maybe cleverer can take it easy.
i hope everyone here can realise how important it is to our future.
study friends STUDY~~!!
its not that im your mother or father,
but just wanna remind you guys about it.
see this friend sooooo damn nice?
HAHA~~!!

to all last-year-form-3 students,
PMR result right?
haha~! congrats to all those who take good result.
those who are not satisfy with their result,
form 4, FIGHT~~!!
cuz you'll be like me, SPM very soon.
hehe... cuz time flies you know?

one year, just passed like that.
year 2008, im really very happy to know friends like you all.
and bcuz i almost drop class,
i treasure our friendship more.
leong
ah lek
zhialun
chungkeat
khaiwei
cheachun
weichong
yuxuan
wanshin
ievonn
chee cheat
jiajia
sherry
joey
shuwhey
minyew
although some of them are not really that close with me,
but still there's friendship between us and it is precious to me, seriously.
so, friends forever?

tennis is my life,
till now it still is.
friends i know from tennis,
no one can replace them, ever.
ievonn
yanqi
lizen
jia an
kian teong
kimberly
peiqi
melissa
eezhou
jikent
karen
its not easy to get friendship like these.
this year 2009 is my LAST YEAR.
oh god, i gonna miss you guys like hell.
sobxX~! i'll find you guys when im free or go to ipoh.
haha~! promise.

and some ppl that appear in my life,
that make some changes to me.
(yea you know you're included in daniel allison)
whether its good or bad,
i appreciate that.
they made me grew stronger and i can differentiate whats wrong and right.
love you guys too~!

year 2008,
good things and bad things happened.
let the good things continue and let the bad things passed.
new year, new life.
we're growing up each day,
and i realise, everything we do, whatever decision we make,
determine our future and life.
i have to be more responsible.
cuz this is my life, ME~~!!

-J!@rU-

friends forever?

2008-12-22T17:16:00.000-08:00

duh... what a tennis tournament in kl,

that made my life miserable.

this is the worst tournament in my whole life.

trust me, you don wanna experience it too...

its not about the accomodation, its not about the food,

its not about the cleanliness, but its about the people there.

!!! it just make me furious sometimes, its so unfair...

unfair, im not meaning the draw or the game.

what im talking about is ppl.

stop being unfair to me or to you...

wake up ppl~! in the competition its not just about the game,

win or lose, understand guys?

its about the whole team, the whole state and all the competitors.

ah nvm about that anymore.

one thing that is interesting about the tournament is.........

HAHA~! observing the ppl there~~~!!!

hahahaha... cute guys, pretty girls, good tennis strokes, exciting match, etc etc.

hehe... im evil marn~!

sobxX~! next year cant enter anymore cuz im too OLD already.

cham... nvm, maybe i'll go to mssm and enjoy the competition with the whole team.

hehe, so damn excited.

hopefully next year mssm is in sabah, or perhaps kl.

if its in sabah then we can go there by PLANE~~!!

haha... so syok~! *dreaming dreaming*

-J!@rU-

am i thinking too much?

2008-12-13T06:49:00.000-08:00

i've been thinking lately, just cant stop thinking..

i feel, i feel, i feel many things that i cant feel before this.

i suddenly miss my friends in school.

zhialun, huey tyng, lek, wanshin, khai wei, weichong, yuxuan.

*sigh* so sad....

i don know why, when im sad i will think of you guys.

i feel like talking to you all sometimes.

haha~! miracle huh?

never felt this way before, seriously.

i've gone crazy~!

without friends in my life, no way.

i just wish the holiday can end very soon,

so that i can meet them, hehe~!

my mind is just, confusing right now....

thinking of you, too much.

you know why? cuz im an idiot.

tomorrow im going to kl d.

*sigh* boring~!

i wish i can earn some money, thats all.

haha~! wish i can have fun.

wish my luck friends...

*wink* haha~! just be the top 8 and win the money.

-J!@rU-

i said, i wanna forget it...

2008-12-12T02:35:00.000-08:00

duh~! what a sad day today...

what happened to me today?

i've been thinking lately, seriously.

*sigh*

why is love always so complicated?

why cant love be simpler?

like just, i love you and you love me, thats all?

duh duh duh...

it makes my life miserable,

doesnt make me happy, not at all right now...

i rather im a lesbian, have a girl that loves me, EASY~!

i wanna forget it sometimes, just let it go...

as time goes by, it vanishes, silently.

i've been pretty mean and selfish lately...

sorry lek, huey tyng, khai wei and any of my dear friends *=P*

i didnt really care alot about you recently...

busy is not an excuse i know.

=D i promise i'll treat you nice... PROMISE~~!!

i love you guys~! always...

im just sorry.

hang out together? =P

miss you guys alot~!

-J!@rU-

my hong kong trip

2008-12-10T02:02:00.000-08:00

yoyoyo~~~~

hey... im back from my hong kong trip~~!!

haha~! know what?

there's a lot of lengzai in hong kong....

WOW ~~!!

haha... damn syok...

=P nah, just joking.

the 1st day....

its a free-and-easy day...

when i reached hong kong it was already about 2.30 pm...

not yet eat lunch yet... >< *cham*

then some more cold wor...

haiz.... pity me~~~

go around the street, all the food i wasnt interested at all...

duh~! cuz it's all in chinese, and i don really understand what it was written there.

=P i don like the food there.

really suck~~!!

then at night we take a bus to go around the city.

it was nice, beautiful...

according to the tour guide, those shopping mall in hong kong are meant for those rich ppl.

so.... haha~! we dont really wanna go into the malls.

the 2nd day...

we stayed in the disneyland for the whole day.

disneyland.... haha~! it is so worth.

i like it sooooooo much.....

hehe~! i cant tell much...

just.... haha~! you should go there.

recommended by jiaru~~~!! =D

ah... remember something, its super cold in the night...

i just remember i kept shivering throughout the night.

sobxX~!

the 3rd day....

in the morning, we had a half-day-tour.

erm... it was boring... *duh, duh, duh*

in the afternoon, it was the ocean park time~~!!

haha~! erm... it was fun too.

erm... you should go too...

recommended by jiaru~~~

haha~!

the 4th day...

duh, boring and tired day...

we were going back.

=( i miss hong kong...

-J!@rU-

Hong Kong~~~ here i come~!

2008-12-03T03:28:00.000-08:00

hehe... two days left...

TWO days left~~

haha~! im going to hong kong....

im going to pokkai soon

cuz i need to buy souvenier for my friends...

haha~!

shopping paradise~~~!!

WAHAHAHAHA.... I'VE GONE CRAZY~~!!

hehe... im going to pokkai d...

but i don care anymore...

just want to spend SPEND and SPEND~~~!! =P

After hong kong trip, i'll have lots of tennis training and then...

tournament~~!! at last...

its been a long time marn........

i've waited for it for a damn long time....

-J!@rU-

whoo hoo~~!! so syok...

2008-12-02T03:16:00.000-08:00

haha~! last saturday i went to penang...

go shopping... =P

it was Queensbay~!

haha...

nice nice nice....

i bought seven items....

hehe.... so happy~!

yay~~!! im going to hong kong soon...

hope it'll be a good trip...

hehe... im so damn excited about it...

哎哟哟，最近不知干嘛，心情很糟糕。

说不是因为他，就是在骗自己了。

duh~! 就因为他，他不配啊～～～！！

hmph~~ 就只好让自己忙些，不要想太多。

可怜的我，haiz...

- J!@rU-

state cadet camp the 8th...

2008-11-26T22:04:00.001-08:00

me, jiamin, lydia, shuting and kah hui

AJK's

who bully adam?

me and the 4th group -- the Einsteins

the chao ah gua and my group de assistant adam ooi

the camp commander lee weng kit and the best ambulance

the quartermaster / game master ooi keo wei and the best ambulance
(i forgotten your name~~~)

KE guys??

state cadet camp...

haha~!

its fun and exciting~~~~

haha... next year cannot come again already...

SPM coming... duh~!

i miss you all guys...

- J!@rU -

yo~! im back...

2008-11-23T22:15:00.000-08:00

shaking hand after a nice match

duh, what am i doing?

jia an : hmmm... im wondering~!

me and yanqi

my poster from chee cheat

hey hey hey~~~!!!

im back, from the tennis camp and the st,john state cadet camp...

{tiredness} duh~!

haha~! i was so having fun...

the tennis camp...

haha~! was very fun... nice~!

we have a competition in december

the interstate competition...

=D im so looking-forward to it...

the st.john state cadet camp...

haha~! i cant forget about it, at all~!

i know a lot of great ppl from the camp, that makes the camp really different...

ker jia min, adam ooi, their members, some perfecto committees,

members, keep in touch oo~!

i do miss you all, miss me also lar... =P

hehe... got time go yum cha lar, ok?

promise~!

=D im so damn excited

im going to hong kong already~~~~!!!

and after my hong kong trip

mr.daniel allison is coming to malaysia

whoo~~!!

haha~! like monkey onli...

=P ok... {busy busy}

-J!@rU-

the last day of schooling...

2008-11-14T03:38:00.000-08:00

YEAH~~~!!!

its the last day of schooling already...

but i didnt go to school.. =P

cuz i cant get a frog from my house~! sobxX~!

if not, i'll be able to dissect it TODAY, wahahaha~!

*evil* hehe... pity frog..

tell you what,

im playing PET SOCIETY~!

hard to believe huh?

cuz before that,

ievonn keep asking me to play...

haha~! i scolded her and called her childish... =P

paiseh ar ievonn... hehe~!

And,

i would wan to congrats DANIEL...

exam's over for him~~!!

haha...

and happy holiday for everyone~! =D

support my blog marn~!

-J!@rU-

vomit i feel sick doing that...

2008-11-12T19:32:00.000-08:00

ahhh~!

biology day....

we dissected rats yesterday~!

pity, white, little rat....

aiyoyo.... miss yau so hiong~!

at the end of the dissection, miss yau broke its head

using her BARE HANDS~~~~

OMG, i feel like vomitting at the beginning...

rat = dirty

i still remember our monitor miao si...

haha~! think she was too scared....

she wore the rubber gloves and mouth cover

and sit FAR AWAY from the rat...

haha~! ievonn said she saw her crying too...

haiz... pity miao si~!

to tell the truth,

i was very afraid too...

but still i wanted to experience dissection of RAT...

haha~!

cut its epidermis from the VAGINA?

haha~! thats what teacher teached....

nah... not vagina, its a little above it...

eewwww~!

i don know why, i keep thinking of the process of dissection when im eating...

argh~! its so disgusting, and yet i couldnt get it out of my mind...

scary scary.... sobxX~!

i still remember, haha~! zhiru's group...

the rat that dissected had four FAECES in the large intestine~~!!

haha~! and the faeces drop into the dissecting set...

OMG, ewwwwwww~~~~!!!

yeah~!

at night, miss yau and miss loh belanja us to eat at old town...

syok syok syok~~!! haha~!

the two teachers are always so cute and funny.

haha~! i think i laughed the loudest in the whole restaurant.

=P =P

keep talking the dissection in the morning.

while eating?

haha~! think we was talking the wrong topic at the wrong time.

its so nice of the teachers to treat us EVERY YEAR...

=D so next year its the last year already

so we should have a bigger treat from the teachers~~~!!
(haha~! just joking)

i'll miss the dinner, always~!

yeah~! i have campsssss in this holiday...

duh... oh no~!

there's a clashing between my tennis camp and st.john's state cadet camp.

sobxX~! i wanna attend both, can i? =D

hehe... the tennis camp would very fun...

im so excited~~~!! haha =D =D =D

tennis camp => 17th - 20th nov

state cadet camp => 20th - 23rd nov

hua lian st.john camp => 18th - 19th dec

libra tourney => 13th - 20th dec

damn~! it always has to happen like that

between tennis and st.john

zzz... hate that~!

good luck in AIT exam, daniel allison.

wahahaha~!

all the best for those who taking spm and stpm as well...

-J!@rU-

phew lucky me

2008-11-12T00:58:00.000-08:00

!!!!!

i feel like screaming, yelling, shouting~~!!!

wahahahahaha~!

im in im in im in~~!!!

im still remain in sc1...

hahaha~!

slap me SLAP ME SLAP ME

tell me that im not dreaming....

whoohoo~!

*dancing wildly*

haha~! i should really treasure this chance to stay in sc1

sobxX~! haha...

yeah yeah yeah...

today i'll have a free dinner...

haha~! whoo~!

miss yau and miss loh are gonna belanja us eat at old town white coffee...

nice nice nice~!

haha~!

its been so long that we didnt eat with the teachers...

haha~! its HOLIDAY now...

we can do what we want to...

hehe~!

wanna have a party for christmas?

haha~! k-box k-box...

or maybe you wanna go to penang together?

-J!@rU-

Holiday's coming~!

2008-11-11T06:05:00.000-08:00

Hey hey hey~!

holiday's comin...

it means the boring days of mine is coming...

sobxX~!

bored BORED BORED~!

actually i do have plans for my holiday

but not really sure gonna make up for that anot...

camps and trips...

and TENNIS too~!

whoo~!

i gonna make full preparation for next year....

hope i'll be doing good...

said by someone,

maybe i'll frop from the 1st class...

said by someone else,

i'll not going to drop...

sobxX~! im not sure about it...

i definately don wan to drop class

new friends? new teachers?

no way~!

Aiyoyo...

my computer had reformatted...

damn~! my game....

CS, diner dash.... ALL GONE~!

so lazy to play them all AGAIN...

im so angry~!

thanks to my little bro... arggh~!

i think i should stop playing all these games...

haha~!

cuz next year its time to be serious...

SPM~~!! its really a nightmare...

hope i can handle it well...

you too friends~! =D

-J!@rU-

back from selection in ipoh

2008-11-09T00:27:00.000-08:00

Ievonn... taking photos huh?

Yo~! she's fierce~!

Haha~! look at her face..

waa... gengster~!

Smiling like a little child...

Wa... my boss is playing tennis....

Waliao~!

Look at my face now... I become so dark d~~!!

OMG... cant believe it when i saw myself in the mirror...

sobxX~! regret that i didnt apply sunblock...

i look like a red indian now...

selection result :

Me and lizen - Me 6-1 6-3

Yanqi and Ievonn - Yanqi 6-3 6-3

Yanqi and Me - Yanqi 6-2 6-2

Ievonn and Lizen - Ievonn 6-2 6-3

Aiyo... cham lar me...

Yanqi congrats, you're so GENG~!

The guys part, im not very sure...

but one thing i know is - KEVIN LOKE KE-WEI cheated a lot~!

pity my bro jia an onli... sobxX~!

nvm nvm nvm bro...there must be a chance to beat him...

wahahahaha~! when you beat him i'll belanja you starbucks...

hehe~! *evil*

Eezhou win all, ji kent too...

they both surely get selected...

c'mon jia an and aaron~!

don let KEVIN LOKE THE BIG CHEATER win~!

Next week its my turn to play with ievonn...

haha~! O% confident marn~!

don care so much... just play my game...

i just know 1 thing, i wanna get selected and go to the tournament... *wink*

hehe... good luck too ievonn, haha~!

yanqi ar... no need add oil d lar... so GENG d, hmph~!

Lizen must add a lot of oil ar... Jia You~!

-J!@rU-

Finally all finished~!

2008-11-07T23:35:00.000-08:00

haha~! finally my piano exam's over~!

Whoo~!

aiyoyo... but ar... i did play wrong notes during my pieces...

sobxX~! cham... the sight reading was so difficult...

i think i'll get a fail for that... wahahahaha~!

don wanna think about it anymore... hehe~!

so just wishing i'll get a pass, thats all...

i don request much isnt it?

haha~! yea thats me...

Im buying a new camera d...

what colour is nicer?

bright red or pink?

haha~! red is a very striking colour

pink is girls' favourite colour...

i like both, so how?

-J!@rU-

Piano exam...

2008-11-07T07:02:00.000-08:00

Aduh~!

Piano exam, again...

its practical... i bet my hand will be trembeling like hell...

im so damn nervous, always~!

till now, i still play the wrong notes...

OMG, its just like a nightmare.

Wish me luck, friends~!

haha~!

im so busy tomorrow...

i have three places to go at the same time...

tennis training in ipoh, st. john meeting, and my PIANO EXAM~!

of cuz i have to attend the exam as i've paid for it already...

sobxX~! i want to go to ipoh, to meet my dear friends~!

yer.... miss them so, so much~!

nvm, i'll meet you all in ipoh on sunday, whoo~!

starbucks~! wahahahaha~!

-J!@rU-

Hoping for the best...

2008-11-06T07:00:00.000-08:00

i cant say that im bad mood today, cuz im cheerful and happy everyday...

this is what people always say to me...

but sometimes i do really hope that i could be more emotional,

show all my emotions to everyone, so that they could really understand me...

tennis training...

so damn tired...

its good too, let me forget about the problem at least for a while...

aiyoyo... saturday cannot go to ipoh AGAIN...

sorry friends, i have piano practical exam...

sobxX~! miss you all so much, but don worry...

cuz im coming on sunday... wahahaha~!

my thoughts :

friends who do really understand me should know,

when im smiling and laughing, probably im happy or perhaps just fine...

when im not smiling always and onli smile when people talk to me or look at me,

i may be moody or sad...

when im not smiling AT ALL, it means that im heart broken, or fear is burning my heart...

sobxX~! i do wish that world could always be as simple as my mind, but could it?

Sometimes i rather i dont have a good brain, to think so deeply,

and making me hurt more...

Sometimes i hope time can stop, even just for a little while...

Sometimes i hope i could be more selfish, always think for myself 1st...

and sometimes, i wish i can smile, no matter how much i suffer...

friends who are taking spm or stpm,

jia you oo~!

good luck and best wishes...

don think too much, concentrate on spm~!

its a terrible news...

2008-11-05T05:48:00.000-08:00

5th nov 2008

i don know how to start my blog today....
i received a bad news from my friend -- i maybe cant remain in the 1st class...
feel like crying straight away, but i still hide away my tears...
really upset~!
don wanna think about it anymore actually, but can i really do?

tell you what,
if i really do drop class into sc2, i wanna be the class monitor~!
wahahahaha~! =D hehe...
haha~! nah, just joking... its just for fun.

*sigh* what i can do now is just pray, pray and pray...
aiyoyo, so sad lar this blog...
but don worry, me friends...
im always happy and cheerful...
and STRONG too~!
i really wish i can stay happy, no matter what class im in, or whatever happens...
wish me luck, friends~!

-J!@rU-

1st blog~! 4th Nov 2008

2008-11-04T02:30:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey~!

hi everyone, jiaru here...

(duh, its my blog, of course its me here...)

this is my 1st blog, hehe~!

sobxX~! i cried today...

secretly... (haha~!)

cuz i get back my english paper already...

waaa.... so disappointed~!

maybe im over confident lar...

feel like slapping myself at that time...

i really don wanna drop class...

sobxX~! students from other class are so strong...

really need to work harder next time, but do i have next time in sc1...

exam really make us all stressed, but we have to be always optimistic, right?

=D don request much actually...

just wanna be happy lor... :P

who wanna watch "the coffin" with me...

i wanna watch with someone brave, can?

thank you very much...

give comments give comments , haha~!

Its J!@rU's blog~!

my 18th birthday

happy? sad? disappointed? tension?

-untitled-

one week holiday

seriously i hate my life now..

my college life

going to college..

-untitled-

=(

new year 2010 - day 1

new year eve - reunion lunch

girls, must be understanding???

lucky jiaru... =P

life is precious...

-untitled-

back from 1st leg

-no title-

back from bali

twilight saga - new moon

not confident, at all...

my graduation day

QTI

impressive~~!!

carrie underwood - i'll stand by you

my very first time of driving a car

Colbie Caillat - Fallin for you

wealth

最近大家怎么了？

aging XD

4-in-1 day

understanding..

yeah yeah yeah~!

给你的信

duh~! helpless

makan makan makan...

终于，我也有这一天

choices..

April fool~~!!

因为你

hanging out with friends...

aiyo... aiyo...

darn~! are you nut?

holiday ends, hard life comes

its holiday~! and im pokkai...

my dear friend, happy birthday~!

happy birthday daniel, my life without you..

pizza hut --->> what a goood service and foooooddd...

happy birthday to lek, joey, daniel allison

roses, roses, everywhere.

now then, i realise...

new year preparation

new year eve and new year

baking cakes for new year

difference between love and like

sickness~~

sand and wind?

one week... new year resolution

A new year, a new life.

friends forever?

am i thinking too much?

i said, i wanna forget it...

my hong kong trip

Hong Kong~~~ here i come~!

whoo hoo~~!! so syok...

state cadet camp the 8th...

yo~! im back...

the last day of schooling...

*vomit* i feel sick doing that...

*phew* lucky me

Holiday's coming~!

back from selection in ipoh

Finally all finished~!

Piano exam...

Hoping for the best...

its a terrible news...

1st blog~! 4th Nov 2008

vomit i feel sick doing that...

phew lucky me